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This is from my blog(7skymom.blogspot.com).
This is a translation of my SKY novel into English.
Until the day I live, I will write my SKY novel steadily and blog it.
Readers of the world!
I wish we could talk until the day we live together.


SKY Novel
Contents
1. Space
2. EARTH
3. Life
4. Humanity
5. World History
6. Korean  History
7. SKY MOM
8. World Government
epilogue





My name is SKYMOM.
SKYMOM has been on the Korean peninsula for over 60 years now.
 I want to borrow story of  a novel type to develop a Long March of my life .
Would you please listen my story as we walk along the trail
and talk about the two of us?
So let's start.
Story is fun.
The story is so easy.
The story gives us many historical lessons.
The basic motivation for writing this novel begins in the year of 1976.
I will go back to those days and recall the time and  talk a story.
At that time, I must give the mood first.
SKYMOM failed an entrance exam to enter university at Seoul in Korea in the year of 1976.
Naturally, I had to enroll in a private school to  prepare entrance exams of university for the next chance in downtown.
I had to repeat the high school course for a year for university entrance examination repeatedly.
This time  was meant  times that were embarrassed and frustrated for SKYMOM.
At that time, the general view which is a high school graduate  person who is waiting for another chance to enter a college was to pass the prestigious universities only for  the parents.,
This way was recognized as the only way to be the path of success in life.
Looking at other roads was considered a departure for what was considered a  bad way.
I had been  lived in hell of study for an entrance examination for the most time  of my life.
Everyone had been  became a uniform model person who naturally formed.

This was a natural  era situation.
In other words, it has become the person of test style who  choose one of four test  problems .
Naturally…
The era has made us an end product as a stuffed animal with a robot. .
But  SKYMOM  did not have interest in such a viewpoint and could not feel very interest.
Why didnt SKYMOM feel interested about that?
First, it was exhausted by education of memory which is centered on excessive entrance examination.
it was hard to reach the goal point towards the entrance examination, physically with the discharge finished,
The second reason was that SKYMOM did not have any interest in the regular course that  get good grades and next  getting a job at a great  company and being promoted to director general manager and CEO  after passing a good prestigious university,
And finally, because it was interested in the question of 'what is life?'
I was less nervous about the entrance examination because I was intimidated by the question.
Rather, SKYMOM escaped entrance examination as the prison through the question.
The question became my hideout.
I was going into another world on the basis of the question.
So the journey of the exile of the SKYMOM begins ..
 Maybe it is a meeting of fate for me who likes to read the life of a great man, fairy tales and novels from childhood..
When everyone was concentrating on the entrance examination and studied  to  enter  university  ,
SKYMOM was run off the track.
I began to walk the path of self-exile filled with wondrous and reckless wandering about life.
So one of the friends I met at the road was a novel.
Through my novel , I express the pain and frustration that SKYMOM live and feel, and my novel leads me toward the completion of life in the feeling of conceiving a new life
So let's walk together and talk with me  along the paths of the exile  where SKYMOM had to walk.
I do not know whether it was a thorny field or a flower way to heaven .
I guess that  it is confirmed  about time to die.
If you know that it is a judgment , it will be a very subjective, contradictory and temporary decision only.
Looking back at the young days that had to go the long march and I will follow the road.
In one corner of the mind, a phrase in a poem  comes from  my mind
The light of the meadow!
Glory of flowers!
God bless me!
Glory to me.
1. space
The SKYMOM had gone camping at city of  Gongju with SKYMOM’s friends when SKYMOM  was  secondary in high school.
It is the first capital of Paekche kingdom( B.C.100-A.D. 660)  during the Three Kingdoms period at Korea.
This city  is also a historic city with a long history.
Korea 's situation in the 1970s was an economic leap.
One family was poor and lacked supplies.
It was a time when 7-8 high school students had to camp in a single A-type tent for two to three people.
So, it  naturally happened  a natural situation where we had to sleep at night by dividing into 2 groups.
Originally, SKYMOM sleeps well  anywhere , so I went to sleep in a tent and was going to sleep in a tent. and then felt a kick about 1-2 o'clock in the morning
 Who is this? Why?
Hey. get up and  I want to sleep in the tent.
The friend is just laying on the grass and feeling the cold of the body and waking up SKYMOM.
The SKYMOM wakes up and stays out of the tent and sees the sky.
 At that time, the sky was welcoming to me and was making an amazing space show for me.
It was a spectacular sight not seen in the city center like Seoul where the SKYMOM has lived for a lifetime.
The sum total of tens of thousands of stars, which are stuck in the night sky, is truly a highlight and joy itself.
 'How can it be so vast, unchangeable and beautiful?'
The space was the person who initiated beauty and conversion and was the terminator.
But it also came to the conclusion that it could have been transformed into fear and disgrace.
It could have been extreme in the process.
Then why could  we just start the first rush from the universe?
. The reason is simple and clear
The beginning of our life comes from space and the end of our life is returned back to space.
Because the universe is the beginning and the end.
We come from space and are living on this earth.
Humans are the children of the earth.
As it is, Earth is a product of the universe.
So my story begins in the beginning universe.
It is because we can illuminate the future after the past and after today ...
Humans are just bacteria that live a corner of the earth from the perspective of this earth.
So here is the essential reason to think and learn our universe which is our home originally   all the time.
There are about 100 billion galaxies in the universe.
There are about 100 billion planets in the galaxies.
Of course, this is only a statistical approach, I remember the story of a  junior who majored in astronomy.
How many galaxies exist beyond our imagination?
Is it possible to have an astronomical number that surpasses the a great number  of immeasurability?
The SKYMOM was just stupid and awesome looking at astronomy books, but I did not need another word.
So SKYMOM decided to think of the universe very slowly.
 I decided to start a conversation with the universe, looking at the clouds and sky everyday.
Although it sounds like a silent echo
But the silence came back to the story of the more louder  sound in my mind.
It has become a natural routine because it is the conversation with the most meaningful, friendliest friend.
The SKYMOM  should begin to say hello to the universe.
 "Space, Hi! How have you been?"
The universe was also very pleased and sent a response.
"Hello SKYMOM!
How have you been?
How are you doing these days?
Why have you come to me  now?
If you came to me earlier, your horizons of awareness would be widened and your insights would have blown up! "
The universe sends a smile which goodwill and sadness cross  to SKYMOM.
"I'm sorry, space.
I am glad to have found you now even though I am late.
There are a lot of people who can not find you, just lonely, and pass by.
  I am glad to be here early, with  universe ... "
"Come on. Come inside and play with me.
I have much to show you.
There are many gifts available.
 The jewels which have  10 to  22th power are shining for you. You take it all. "
  " Really . Thank you very much. "
SKYMOM has overflowed with complex feelings of externality and fear and jealousy about  his home.
SKYMOM came from his house and returned  to his home and  it was glad about this fact  and even was empty.
The SKYMOM  is a child of the universe.
" space ,how old are you ?"
My age is about 14 billion old.
It was born like the big bang theory about 14 billion years from now.
In other words, it could be said that the word "logos" was the beginning. "
"What? Your age is 14 billion  ... "
SKYMOM had to tell that I was stunned about your  talk.
His age is about 14 billion years old ...
 At the very least, the age of SKYMOM is just over fifty years old.
I can not even be a child of a young child compared to the age of the universe.

Why does the SKYMOM ask his age and start talking?
It is a form of culture of Koreans.
The young children of Koreans also ask their age, "How old are you?"
Then it  decides  my friend or  junior or senior .
This is because the consciousness of the sequence is strong.
How can I imagine the age of the universe?
" Universe, what have you been doing in the meantime?"
"Yes, I was playing  with planets in this space and scattered them in the universe. ."
As a result, SKYMOM come into mind about the concept of God and books about astronomy.
I felt that my mood became more refreshing as I became friends with the universe.
It was a time of great solitude rising to the sky, and it became a chance to fall into Narcissism.
So let's look at and talk to universe whenever and wherever  I am  sad or happy , and  sick or strong.
When I make friends with him, the world will shine like a pearl, and the  pain of world will look  like worms.
But unfortunately I look at the sky to know about the universe.
  I go to the library and borrow books about the universe. But he was not an easy companion.
It was difficult to know his appearance easily.
  It was like a long thorny field as more knowledge through him  is  difficult like picking  up heavenly stars .
Books of astronomy  written for the general peoples are mostly written by astronomers.
So it was not easy to understand as it was written to fit
Astronomer’s level.
SKYMOM had the most fatal weakness.
In other words, there was not much background knowledge about physics.
I was not familiar with physics at birth.

So it was difficult to approach as it had to go astronomically through physics . It is reality.
Of course, SKYMOM is also the baby boomer generation born after the Korean War.
I learned formal education of physics, chemistry and biology when I was in school.
But the subject that I was least interested in and did not understand was physics.
I had a physical lesson once a week during high school.
When the physical teacher came in and lectured, the physical lecture was like the sound of the universe which  heard from a far.
 It was a lot of physics time that it looked like a thin and dark haze.
"Universe. When I am  in high school, I could not imagine that  you were  connected with physics.” "
"It's okay. What do you do if you do not know me academically? It's only part of the scholars' observation and research.
If you do not know about me well, it is no problem .
If you live with me continuously, you will become more and more familiar with me. "
 The universe responded with a gentle and bright smile to me, and gently embraced SKYMOM.
 "Rather, thank  that you just feel comfortable and free, and  you think about me steadily,
 " What are you talking about?
I am rather sorry and thank you.
You are the only vast and endless friend.
I have no friend like you.
Astronomers say that you are  vast, but you also have an end.
I have no idea what it means, but I do not understand.
Then what is next to the end of the universe?
SKYMOM really apologized to the universe and seemed to be sorry..
Being a friend means that you feel a sense of unity between friend and me.
 A friend comes into my life and I live in the life of a friend.
  It was because of the consciousness of comrades.
This  was the sentiment and the justice of Koreans.
Yes, Koreans value principle and   justice, integrity and loyalty as if Koreans  were their own lives.
It was  peoples who had been lived on.
What he is with me is another expression of justice.
And more it was a symbol of loyalty and abstraction.
In the universe, the sky is the God of Koreans, legend, myth and father.
We  will have to  vanish if the universe exist for us as much as we can not live at the earth if we dont have  the sun.
, Today I want to  talk back to chapter 1 about the universe for a moment, and I will try to tell the story about the 7th heavenly mother.
The table of contents I mentioned last time is as follows
SKY Novel
Contents
1. Space
2. Earth
3. Life
4. Humanity
5. World History
6. Korean  History
7. SKY MOM
8. World Government
epilogue

However, Chapter 1 requires a great deal of astronomical
Knowledge and Chapter 2 requires knowledge of geology .
Because the third chapter  needs this biological knowledge
First of all, I will talk about my surroundings and I will complete chapter 1, chapter 2 and chapter 3 later.
Chapter 6 Korean History continues to introduce Korean culture.
 I will also describe the history of Korea in parallel with culture.
This is going to be an alternative to Chapter 6.
Chapter 5 World History will be done slowly after it is finished the story of Korean history and culture
  I will also talk to about footsteps of human being in Chapter 4.
  Because the world history story was the most enjoyable story time at my Korean high school days.
  In addition, for human beings, we should be able to appreciate the past.
  We can clearly recognize the present and predict, plan, and create the future based on the present.
  It is considered essential.
And finally, Chapter 8, The story of the world government, I will look at our global political economy in the future with my old ideas.
. Just as the Jews awaited the Messiah, I am waiting for the modern Messiah to be considered a world government.
, I think it will inevitably occur that many confusion, war, terror, famine, environmental pollution, and conflict caused by gap between rich and  the poor in the current global political and economic situation.
I think that the problem can be solved more by the modernization of Mongolian Genghis Khan and The king of Qin Shi Huang, in China.
It is meant  unification of the world.
If we express it in Buddhist form in our country, it is the Maitreya idea.
  Shamanism is expressed in  Jeongamlok ,Korean book.
So we are looking forward to establishing a world government.
Of course, I think it could be a Don Quixote incident on the negative side.
I will write down my thoughts and thoughts later.


Chapter 7 SKYMOM

First of all, I will try to tell you about  the view of the things through SKYMOM , one by one.
The summer with accompanied on June come  to us
My 60th birthday came with me.
.Korean thinks that 60th birthday is meant first and list life . Life is sixty years.
My heart that meets the 60th  birthday is not only terrible, it is also grievous, and the radiant rainbow shines brightly too in my heart .
In retrospect
Frustration and conflict leads to painful distress
I wonder if it was the time of  many years.
What is left of now
It's a lonely, desolate, calm  mind...
The tiresome examination  Trauma which enter university
Wounds of my first love
The feeling of Love of couple
The  young faith that ran to the church when a chime bell rings in a childhood
The childishness  struggle to pursue the rainbow
Everywhere is gone.
All that's left is
Only an old and wretched wolf crying over a desolate field are projected ...
Now
It's ridiculous ...
I know the meaning of things ten years later.
  I know the meaning of life after I've run out of 60 years.
There is a bitter laughing smile.
Once again I start our conversation with life.
"Hi, how are you?
My name is SKYMOM.
Your name is life.
Who are you and where are you from? "
Life answers this.
"Yes I am me!
I'm a friend with you.
When you are tired and lonely, you are a companion to comfort you, to protect you, to cover you.
My meaning is 'The sky is blue, the ground is yellow, and it is enough to eat the food of three'. "
 "Yeah, I used to ask, 'What is life?'
I wanted to ask you if I met you.
So now I meet you and face you!
So now I meet you and face you!
What is your meaning? I wanted to ask you why you had to be so painful, wandering and frustrated.”
 "Well done.
As young children fight and grow
Child  grows up asking about  life.
Curiosity is the universal value of humanity.
  It's a passage and a shortcut to meet life . "
 "Yes,  life, you are a mystery, a mirage and a rainbow.
Now one day an empty dream  is approaching me and smiling for me.
Do you want to say  me?"
"I have a lot to say.
Peoples  often  say my fault, but it's not my fault.
  That's what original life  structure is like ups and downs as wave..
People express it as fate and also as ability.
I look forward to you as you expected to me. "
"Are you expecting me?”

"Yes, really. I'm also cheering for your accomplishments and motivation. "
"Are you sure?
It is the Copernicus conversion to shake the heaven and earth. "
"Yeah, I'm never your bad friend.
It's just that you're making me a bad friend.
You do not know the inner satisfaction and just look for the rainbow from the outside. "
"O.K, fine .
I will tell you all the times I had to go through you life.
  If you listen to your story, your mind will be different. "
"Let's hear it!"

. Chapter 7-1: story of the house of SKYMOM
. Chapter 7-1: story of the house of the SKYMOM
I meet a friend of my life and try to solve my inmost thoughts
by telling  the story that I experienced during life time.
"My house was  Pyongyang city of North Korea. It is a town that boasts a magnificent view of Manganbong Mountain and  pavilion.
Often, Korean  proverb says, 'If you do not like it, you do not appreciate Pyongyang'.
It is often said that Korean proverb says ' I will not go to Pyongyang If I do not like Pyongyang governor.’
 Paradoxically, everyone wants to become  Pyongyang governor.
Because Pyongyang is a beautiful place where the Daedong river flows.
Everyone wants to see.
In Pyongyang, a woman is beautiful.
But it is also the land of an uncompromising attitude of mind.

Historically, Pyongyang was land of  the Gojoseon dynasty
 later it was also the capital of Goguryeo dynasty.
It is also famous for being the second capital city during the Goryeo dynasty and  Joseon  dynasty period.
And it was  also the place where 단어장 저장 완료 an uncompromising attitude of mind had been resisted against China.
Now the problem is that the direction of uncompromising attitude of mind is toward the USA. ...

Anyway  Pyongyang is a land of historical interest that anyone want to visit Pyongyang.
It is also the land where the Taedong River flow through Korean sad feelings  .
My dad  father used to say that It is the first house of Moran-bang tram station and this place is 3000 square feet  in  crossroads house
 My father  left me a will to visit my parents’  house in Pyongyang before my father passed away.
I also want to go to Pyongyang a lifetime.
I do not know if I will be able to  go to Pyongyang  because time is so strange.
If I can not go to Pyongyang , I will leave  with my only daughter a will to go to Pyongyang.
Of course, I keep to tell  stories with my nephew.
 I think it might be a duty, not even my mission which the history of my family  deliver to their children frankly  .
It may also be a logical leap, but it can be seen that knowing the suffering and frustration of the ancestors can prevent them from suffering again like the Jews,
It is getting longer.”
“. Yeah, it would be fun.
Talk me slowly and funny from the root of the family  history.
Tell me easily , relaxed, , with  fun, and with meaningful lessons  rather than rushing,...
Sky Mom You can do well.
Life I'm expecting you
Just say it.
Naturally"
"My family was evacuated from the Pyongyang   to South Korea.
6.25 The Korean War is a war in which the North Korean People's Army tanks was driven to the South Korea. During the war, my parents had been evacuated with the narrow escape from death from Pyongyang of North Korea  to Pusan city of South Korea .
I'll start with the story.
In order to do that, I have to start from the story of our grandparents in our family. ... Listen, this story is from the  my mother’s  story.
   It's a story created  by mosaicking with sculptural information. This story  is meant sewing patch work.
I will collect some pieces of information and synthesize a little bit of imagination to solve the story.
Because my grandmother and grandfather both died in Pyongyang.
So I have never seen them in my  life.
It just had a portrait of my father and father’s elder brother and grandmother in a living  room..
So I used to go out to meet my grandmother by spreading the imaginary wings.
My grandfather is man of the legend.
  My father grew up without knowing his face.
. My father lived a painful life and died..
Everyone at that time had to go through life of fetter like this ...
Originally, our home country is not Pyongyang at North Korea...
  It's a Soungchun county to the northeast of Pyongyang.
The grandfather of my family is also saying that he was a policeman.
Or it is said that he was a wholesaler who supplied food ingredients to restaurants.
I do not know whose story is right.
  Or maybe they're both wrong or right.
. But my grandfather was a terrible policeman who  the story can be said to be a pro-Japanese group.  
 It may be a shameful story of the house.
 But it does not make the history of the house beautify and do not distort too.
 . It is the child's responsibility to convey and describe without increase and decrease.
It is the spirit of human nature.
"These days, autobiographies and memoirs turn pro-Japanese  group into independent troops against Japan..
  It's fashionable to make a memoir by beautifying pro-Japanese  group  as a patriot.
It puts on makeup of the image and make pro-Japanese  group beautification to excellent  person often.
It says a lie and makes a mythological figure like a great man  in this time. "
"One of the stories I heard growing up was that my grandmother was very much a heroine.
The story of being strong-willed  is coming down.
It is said that my grandmother  was enthusiastic.
She also liked shamanism and I heard that she  kept her idols  in her  house.
In the old days, everyone wanted to get rid of the sundry evil spirits and get a wealth and prosperity
It is still like with the almighty dollar principle
of modern people .
It's the same with humans.
Also, one of the secret facts was that grandfather
 married my grandmother to my second wife.
The grandmother gave birth to five children from her ex-husband.
.. But I wonder how her could  got married again with my grandfather.
It may have been common sense for the customs and emotions  at that time,
Why  my grandfather with former wife and children want to marry  with my grandmother  who has  with former husband and children?
The big brother who came down  from Pyongyang  of North Korea told me that he was married my grandmother because he was delivering food  stuff to her who managed   a restaurant as a wholesaler.
Because they knew each other in terms of trade
they became friendly.
So my grandmother gave birth 7children totally.
But Could they ever marry with on their selves  freely?
At that time, everybody gave birth to about 10 children generally..
Of course, many of them died for not exceeding one year.
I think that it could not have even contraceptive, and of natural delivery usually .
This generation which it is hard to raise a baby like now is very different with old generation as much as the sky and the land are different .”
 " The emotions and circumstances in the 19th century when your grandmother lived, will be different with this time very much. "
"Everything changes.
Today is different and tomorrow is another life.
 It seems to me that it is the essence and core of life to find my inner self   in the flowing life.
But It have a legend which   the funny fact is that my grandmother's father was a wealthy and high and prominent office
It means that my grandmother was a rich daughter.
. It's a mystery why a rich daughter has twice  wedding as mistress.
My father was  grown up without a grandfather.
The story of growing up in a widow 's house also comes down in our family.
My grandfather, my father and my father’s elder brother have been living in Pyongyang poorly . "
 "In the old days, it was customary for everybody to have a second wife or mistress at that time."
 "Yes, it was customary to have mistress.
But the problem is that my grandmother's father has been treating my grandfather as a good for nothing.
The story is coming down. "
 "Why did not your grandmother's father like your grandfather ?"
"I do not know whether my grandfather  was poor or bad man or Japan policeman.
Perhaps my grandmother's father dislike that my grandmother was  married as my grandfather's mistress.
I thought my grandmother’s father  felt badly in his mood, or his honor has disappeared.
Or because the emotions of the time had been thought very badly  about this fact at his daughter  has  wedding twice. 
I do not even understand why the daughter of rich man was  married  poor grandfather.
But my grandmother loved my elder  father and my father terribly, and I heard that she lived But my grandmother loved my great father and father terribly, and I heard that she lived with his two sons until she died in Pyongyang. "
"Have not you ever seen Grandma?"
 "Yes, I have never seen my grandmother, but I could only see her through the portrait which grandmother and elder father and father  was drawn.”
“Didn’t you know the concept of my grandparents and relatives because I have no them ?’
"I grew up without knowing  about the concept of my relatives.
I knew that my family’ relationship is  thin after I got married .
. When I was a kid, of course it was a routine thing.
Especially my elder father went to elementary school in Pyongyang.
He  always got good grades when he went to school.
He had a lot of praise and affection from my grandmother.
I grew up listening to the story from my mother.
But unfortunately, my father did not go to school.
He  was so poor that his family can not support  to go to school because he is  second son in his family.
My mother said me this story sorrowfully.
 It's a huge inconceivable event for now.
But at the time, it was common living condition  in life .
Rather, it was a luxury going to school .
It was a time to think of going to school.
It was a tearful era of the 1920s ...
My mother used to say to me that my cousin studied well in studying because my cousin  resemble  like a elder father. "
"There may be a lot of secret stories  in Pyongyang. "
"I will also tell you about story of the secret history in my family.
My  heart is hurried and are ashamed.
Must I announce the story of my family to the world?
It is kind of embarrassing, and unfamiliar for me now.
I just talked to each other but I did not think that I would tell you life .
Now that I have reserved it, I have shaped it as a novel.
Someday I wanted to tell  to you about  my life journey.
So I pop out of the world, and tell to more people about my story
It would be nice to find a creative way if we could reduce the number of trial and error when we encountered in our life path filled with frustration and suffering .
This is the cause to tell you.”
"Thanks for telling me honestly “
“It is a human fate that everyone can carry their own burdens and walk the path of life.
It just want to be more intelligent and smart in life.
. To do that, it  have been playing around and reading a lot of books since it was a child .


It have to think a lot about things around and write a lot about yourself. "
"Yes, life, you are a wise man and a terminator.
 Let me know a lot of your wisdom, knowledge and meaning of life ... "
I am thrilled to be able to tell the history of my family and me .
It's a story that nobody cares about.
It's also a family history that it not proud of.
I was just trying to pass it but keep just in the heart deeply .
Unexpectedly I am fighting alone and I am glad that you are interested in my story.
It seems to meet the millionaire army.
The power springs up by itself.
It was probably 10 or 20 years ago.
I asked to my olderhe half brother about the history of our family  who was working in Dongdaemun market in Jongno at Seoul in Korea.
Because  I wondered about the history of our family
He was very embarrassed.
The father knew the case.
I remember long time  that my father was scolded me to investigate  my father's  bad career of family.
 It's already been decades ago, and now I'm stamped on my brain ...
Sad self-portrait ..
Of course, I thought that my father and his great father were the children of the afterlife, and that the half-brother was a child, so I did not have such a problem.
Of course, because my father and my elder father are the children of my grandfather’s second wife, and my elder half brother is a grandson my grandfather’s first wife.
. So I thought that it  had a problem.
I know it's too old to have family relations ... "
Historically, there was a system of status in the Joseon Dynasty (A.D 1392-1910).
My father and elder half-brother did not tell me because the emotions of Joseon Dynasty (A.D 1392-1910) had  the distinction against the child by a concubine.
Humans have a protective instinct that they do not want to talk about pain and suffering that they have felt from their childhood.
“I wonder how she looks and hope to meet her.
What kind of my grandmother? ...
She would have loved her grandchildren me very much ...
Why my grandmother loved  the first son just and dislike the second son? "
I have sketched grandma and grandfather about this outline.
Next time, I will sketch the story of my father, my grandfather, and my mother's Pyongyang marriage.


















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