SKYMOM
Novel
Contents
1.
Space
2. EARTH
3.
Life
4.
Humanity
5.
World History
6. Korean History
7. SKY
MOM
8.
World Government
epilogue
My
name is SKYMOM.
SKYMOM has been
on the Korean peninsula for over 60 years now.
I want
to borrow story of a novel type to
develop a Long March of my life
.
Would you please listen my story as we
walk along the trail
and talk about the two of us?
So let's start.
Story is fun.
The story is so easy.
The story gives us many historical
lessons.
The basic motivation for writing this
novel begins in the year of 1976.
I will go back to those days and recall
the time and talk a story.
At that time, I must give the mood first.
SKYMOM failed an entrance exam to enter university at Seoul in Korea in the year of 1976.
Naturally, I had to enroll in a private school to prepare entrance exams
of university for the next chance in
downtown.
I had to repeat the high school course for
a year for university entrance examination repeatedly.
This time was meant times that were embarrassed and frustrated for
SKYMOM.
At that time, the general view which is a high school graduate person who is waiting for another chance to
enter a college was to pass the
prestigious universities only for the
parents.,
This way was recognized as the only way to
be the path of success
in life.
Looking at other roads was considered a
departure for what was considered a bad
way.
I had been lived in hell of study for an entrance examination for the most time of my life.
Everyone had been became a uniform model person who naturally
formed.
This was a natural era situation.
In other words, it has become the person
of test style who choose one of four
test problems .
Naturally…
The era has made us an end product as a
stuffed animal with a robot. .
But SKYMOM did not have interest in such a viewpoint and
could not feel very interest.
Why didn’t SKYMOM feel interested about
that?
First, it was exhausted by education of
memory which is centered on excessive entrance examination.
it was hard to reach the goal point
towards the entrance examination, physically with the discharge finished,
The second reason was that SKYMOM did not
have any interest in the regular course that get good grades and next getting a job at a great company and being promoted to director general
manager and CEO after passing a good
prestigious university,
And finally, because it was interested in
the question of 'what is life?'
I was less nervous about the entrance
examination because I was intimidated by the question.
Rather, SKYMOM escaped entrance
examination as the prison through the question.
The question became my hideout.
I was going into another world on the
basis of the question.
So the journey of the exile of the SKYMOM
begins ..
Maybe
it is a meeting of fate for me who likes to read the life of a great man, fairy tales and novels from childhood..
When everyone was
concentrating on the entrance examination and studied to
enter university ,
I began to walk the
path of self-exile filled with wondrous and reckless wandering about life.
So one of the friends
I met at the road was a novel.
Through my novel , I
express the pain and frustration that SKYMOM live and feel, and my novel leads me
toward the completion of life in the feeling of conceiving a new life
So let's walk together and talk with me along the paths of the exile where SKYMOM had to walk.
I do not know whether it was a thorny
field or a flower way to heaven .
I guess that it is confirmed about time to die.
If you
know that it is a judgment , it will be a very subjective, contradictory and
temporary decision only.
Looking
back at the young days that had to go the long march and I will follow the
road.
In one
corner of the mind, a phrase in
a poem comes from my mind
The light
of the meadow!
Glory of
flowers!
God bless
me!
Glory to
me.
1. space
The SKYMOM had gone camping at city
of Gongju with SKYMOM’s friends when SKYMOM
was secondary in high school.
It is the first capital of Paekche
kingdom( B.C.100-A.D. 660) during the
Three Kingdoms period at Korea.
This city is also a historic city with a long history.
Korea 's situation in the 1970s was an
economic leap.
One family was poor and lacked supplies.
It was a time when 7-8 high school
students had to camp in a single A-type tent for two to three people.
So, it naturally happened a natural situation where we had to sleep at
night by dividing into 2 groups.
Originally, SKYMOM sleeps well anywhere , so I went to sleep in a tent and was
going to sleep in a tent. and then felt a kick about 1-2 o'clock in the morning
“Who
is this? Why?”
“Hey. get up and I want to sleep in the tent.”
The friend is just laying on the grass and
feeling the cold of the body and waking up SKYMOM.
The SKYMOM wakes up and stays out of the
tent and sees the sky.
At
that time, the sky was welcoming to me and was making an amazing space show for
me.
It was a spectacular sight not seen in the
city center like Seoul where the SKYMOM has lived for a lifetime.
The sum total of tens of thousands of
stars, which are stuck in the night sky, is truly a highlight and joy itself.
'How can it be so vast, unchangeable and
beautiful?'
The space was the person who initiated
beauty and conversion and was the terminator.
But it also came to the conclusion that it
could have been transformed into fear and disgrace.
It could have been extreme in the process.
Then why could we just start the first rush from the
universe?
. The reason is
simple and clear
The beginning of our life comes from space
and the end of our life is returned back to space.
Because the universe is the beginning and
the end.
We come from space and are living on this earth.
Humans are the children of the earth.
As it is, Earth is a product of the
universe.
So my story begins in the beginning
universe.
It is because we can illuminate the future
after the past and after today ...
Humans are just bacteria that live a
corner of the earth from the perspective of this earth.
So here is the essential reason to think
and learn our universe which is our home originally all
the time.
There are about 100 billion galaxies in
the universe.
There are about 100 billion planets in the
galaxies.
Of course, this is only a statistical
approach, I remember the story of a junior who majored in astronomy.
How many galaxies exist beyond our
imagination?
Is it possible to have an astronomical
number that surpasses the a great
number of immeasurability?
The SKYMOM was just stupid and awesome
looking at astronomy books, but I did not need another word.
So SKYMOM decided to think of the universe
very slowly.
I
decided to start a conversation with the universe, looking at the clouds and
sky everyday.
Although it sounds like a silent echo
But the silence came back to the story of
the more louder sound in my mind.
It has become a natural routine because it
is the conversation with the most meaningful, friendliest friend.
The SKYMOM should begin to say hello to the universe.
"Space,
Hi! How have you been?"
The universe was also very pleased and
sent a response.
"Hello SKYMOM!
How have you been?
How are you doing these days?
Why have you come to me now?
If you came to me earlier, your horizons
of awareness would be widened and your insights would have blown up! "
The universe sends a smile which goodwill and sadness cross to SKYMOM.
"I'm sorry, space.
I am glad to have found you now even
though I am late.
There are a lot of people who can not find
you, just lonely, and pass by.
I am glad to be here early, with universe ... "
"Come on. Come inside and play with
me.
I have much to show you.
There are many gifts available.
The
jewels which have 10 to 22th power are shining for you. You take it
all. "
"
Really . Thank you very much. "
SKYMOM has overflowed with complex
feelings of externality and fear and jealousy about his home.
SKYMOM came from his house and returned to his home and it was glad about this fact and even was empty.
The SKYMOM is a child of the universe.
" space ,how old are you ?"
“ My age is about 14 billion old.
It was born like the big bang theory about
14 billion years from now.
In other words, it could be said that the
word "logos" was the beginning. "
"What? Your age is 14 billion ... "
SKYMOM had to tell that I was stunned
about your talk.
His age is about 14 billion years old ...
At the
very least, the age of SKYMOM is just over fifty years old.
I can not even be a child of a young child
compared to the age of the universe.
Why does the SKYMOM ask his age and start
talking?
It is a form of culture of Koreans.
The young children of Koreans also ask
their age, "How old are you?"
Then it decides my friend or junior or senior .
This is because the consciousness of the
sequence is strong.
How can I imagine the age of the universe?
" Universe, what have you been doing
in the meantime?"
"Yes, I was playing with planets in this space and scattered them
in the universe. ."
As a result, SKYMOM come into mind about the
concept of God and books about astronomy.
I felt that my mood became more refreshing
as I became friends with the universe.
It was a time of great solitude rising to
the sky, and it became a chance to fall into Narcissism.
So let's look at and talk to universe whenever
and wherever I am sad or happy , and sick or strong.
When I make friends with him, the world
will shine like a pearl, and the pain of
world will look like worms.
But unfortunately I look at the sky to
know about the universe.
I go to the library and borrow
books about the universe. But he was not an easy companion.
It was difficult to know his appearance
easily.
It was like a long thorny field as
more knowledge through him is difficult like picking up heavenly stars .
Books of astronomy written for the general peoples are mostly
written by astronomers.
So it was not easy to understand as it was
written to fit
Astronomer’s level.
SKYMOM had the most fatal weakness.
In other words, there was not much
background knowledge about physics.
I was not familiar with physics at birth.
So it was difficult to approach as it had
to go astronomically through physics . It is reality.
Of course, SKYMOM is also the baby boomer
generation born after the Korean War.
I learned formal education of physics,
chemistry and biology when I was in school.
But the subject that I was least
interested in and did not understand was physics.
I had a physical lesson once a week during
high school.
When the physical teacher came in and
lectured, the physical lecture was like the sound of the universe which heard from a far.
It
was a lot of physics time that it looked like a thin and dark haze.
"Universe. When I am in high school, I could not imagine that you were connected with physics.” "
"It's okay. What do you do if you do
not know me academically? It's only part of the scholars' observation and
research.
If you do not know
about me well, it is no problem .
If you live with me continuously,
you will become more and more familiar with me. "
The
universe responded with a gentle and bright smile to me, and gently embraced SKYMOM.
"Rather,
thank that you just feel comfortable and
free, and you think about me steadily,”
" What
are you talking about?
I am rather sorry and thank you.
You are the only vast and endless friend.
I have no friend like you.
Astronomers say that you are vast, but you also have an end.
I have no idea what it means, but I do not
understand.
Then what is next to the end of the
universe?”
SKYMOM really apologized to the universe
and seemed to be sorry..
Being a friend means that you feel a sense
of unity between friend and me.
A friend comes into my life and I
live in the life of a friend.
It was because of the consciousness
of comrades.
This was the sentiment and the justice of Koreans.
Yes, Koreans value principle and justice,
integrity and loyalty as if Koreans were
their own lives.
It was
peoples who had been lived on.
What he is with me is another expression
of justice.
And more it was a symbol of loyalty and
abstraction.
In the universe, the
sky is the God of Koreans, legend, myth and father.
We will have to
vanish if the universe exist for us as much as we can not live at the
earth if we don’t have the sun.
, Today I want
to talk back to chapter 1 about the
universe for a moment, and I will try to tell the story about the 7th heavenly
mother.
The table of contents I mentioned last
time is as follows
SKY
Novel
Contents
1.
Space
2. Earth
3.
Life
4.
Humanity
5.
World History
6. Korean History
7. SKY
MOM
8.
World Government
epilogue
However, Chapter 1 requires a great deal
of astronomical
Knowledge and Chapter 2 requires knowledge
of geology .
Because the third chapter needs this biological knowledge
First of all, I will talk about my
surroundings and I will complete chapter 1, chapter 2 and chapter 3 later.
Chapter 6 Korean History continues to
introduce Korean culture.
I will also describe the history of
Korea in parallel with culture.
This is going to be an alternative to
Chapter 6.
Chapter
5 World History will be done slowly after it is finished the story of Korean
history and culture
I will also talk to about footsteps of human being in Chapter 4.
Because the world history story was the most enjoyable story time at my Korean high
school days.
In addition, for human beings, we should be able to appreciate the past.
We can clearly recognize the present and predict, plan, and create the future
based on the present.
It is considered essential.
And
finally, Chapter 8, The story of the world government, I will look at our
global political economy in the future with my old ideas.
.
Just as the Jews awaited the Messiah, I am waiting for the modern Messiah to be
considered a world government.
, I
think it will inevitably occur that many confusion, war, terror, famine,
environmental pollution, and conflict caused by gap between rich and the poor in the current global political and
economic situation.
I
think that the problem can be solved more by the modernization of Mongolian Genghis Khan and The king
of Qin Shi Huang, in China.
It
is meant unification of the world.
If
we express it in Buddhist form in our country, it is the Maitreya idea.
Shamanism is expressed in Jeongamlok
,Korean book.
So
we are looking forward to establishing a world government.
Of
course, I think it could be a Don Quixote incident on the negative side.
I
will write down my thoughts and thoughts later.
Chapter
7 SKYMOM
First
of all, I will try to tell you about the
view of the things through SKYMOM , one by one.
The
summer with accompanied on June come to
us
My
60th birthday came with me.
.Korean
thinks that 60th birthday is meant first and list life . Life is sixty years.
My heart that meets the 60th birthday is not only terrible, it is also
grievous, and the radiant rainbow shines brightly too in my heart .
In retrospect
Frustration and conflict leads to painful
distress
I wonder if it was the time of many years.
What is left of now
It's a lonely, desolate, calm mind...
The tiresome examination Trauma which enter university
Wounds of my first love
The feeling of Love of couple
The young faith that ran to the church when a
chime bell rings in a childhood
The childishness struggle to pursue the rainbow
Everywhere is gone.
All that's left is
Only an old and wretched wolf crying over
a desolate field are projected ...
Now
It's ridiculous ...
I know the meaning of
things ten years later.
I know the
meaning of life after I've run out of 60 years.
There is a bitter
laughing smile.
Once again I start
our conversation with life.
"Hi, how are
you?
My name is SKYMOM.
Your name is life.
Who are you and where are you from? "
Life answers this.
"Yes I am me!
I'm a friend with you.
When you are tired and lonely, you are a
companion to comfort you, to protect you, to cover you.
My meaning is 'The sky is blue, the ground
is yellow, and it is enough to eat the food of three'. "
"Yeah, I used to ask, 'What is life?'
I wanted to ask you if I met you.
So now I meet you and face you!
So now I meet you and face you!
What is your meaning? I wanted to ask you
why you had to be so painful, wandering and frustrated.”
"Well done.
As young children fight and grow
Child grows up asking about life.
Curiosity is the universal value of
humanity.
It's a passage and a shortcut to
meet life . "
"Yes, life, you are a mystery, a mirage and a
rainbow.
Now one day an empty dream is approaching me and smiling for me.
Do you want to say me?"
"I have a lot to say.
Peoples often say my fault, but it's not my fault.
That's what original life structure is like ups and downs as wave..
People express it as fate and also as
ability.
I look forward to you as you expected to
me. "
"Are you expecting me?”
"Yes, really. I'm also cheering for
your accomplishments and motivation. "
"Are you sure?
It is the Copernicus conversion to shake
the heaven and earth. "
"Yeah, I'm never your bad friend.
It's just that you're making me a bad
friend.
You do not know the inner satisfaction and
just look for the rainbow from the outside. "
"O.K, fine .
I will tell you all the times I had to go
through you life.
If you listen to your story, your
mind will be different. "
"Let's hear it!"
. Chapter
7-1: story of the house of SKYMOM
. Chapter 7-1: story of the house of the SKYMOM
I
meet a friend of my life and try to solve my inmost thoughts
by telling
the story that I experienced during life
time.
"My house was Pyongyang city of North Korea. It is a town
that boasts a magnificent view of Manganbong Mountain and pavilion.
Often, Korean proverb says, 'If you do not like it, you do
not appreciate Pyongyang'.
It is often said that Korean proverb says
' I will not go to Pyongyang If I do not like Pyongyang governor.’
Paradoxically,
everyone wants to become Pyongyang
governor.
Because Pyongyang is a beautiful place
where the Daedong river flows.
Everyone wants to see.
In Pyongyang, a woman is beautiful.
But it is also the land of an uncompromising attitude of mind.
Historically, Pyongyang was land of the Gojoseon dynasty
later it was also
the capital of Goguryeo dynasty.
It is also famous for being the second
capital city during the Goryeo dynasty and
Joseon dynasty period.
Now the problem is that the direction of uncompromising attitude of mind is toward the USA. ...
Anyway
Pyongyang is a land of historical interest that anyone want to visit Pyongyang.
It is also the land where the Taedong
River flow through Korean sad feelings .
My dad father used to say that It is the first house
of Moran-bang tram station and this place is 3000 square feet in crossroads house
My
father left me a will to visit my parents’
house in Pyongyang before my father
passed away.
I also want to go to Pyongyang a lifetime.
I do not know if I will be able to go to Pyongyang because time is so strange.
If I can not go to Pyongyang , I will
leave with my only daughter a will to go
to Pyongyang.
Of course, I keep to tell stories with my nephew.
I
think it might be a duty, not even my mission which the history of my family deliver to their children frankly .
It may also be a logical leap, but it can
be seen that knowing the suffering and frustration of the ancestors can prevent
them from suffering again like the Jews,
It is getting longer.”
“. Yeah, it would
be fun.
Talk me slowly and funny from the root of
the family history.
Tell me easily , relaxed, , with fun, and with meaningful lessons rather than rushing,...
Sky Mom You can do well.
Life I'm expecting you
Just say it.
Naturally"
"My family was evacuated from the
Pyongyang to South Korea.
6.25 The Korean War is a war in which the
North Korean People's Army tanks was driven to the South Korea. During the war,
my parents had been evacuated with the
narrow escape from death from Pyongyang
of North Korea to Pusan city of South
Korea .
I'll start with the story.
In order to do that, I have to start from
the story of our grandparents in our family. ... Listen, this story is from the
my mother’s story.
It's a story created by mosaicking with sculptural information.
This story is meant sewing patch work.
I will collect some pieces of information
and synthesize a little bit of imagination to solve the story.
Because my grandmother and grandfather
both died in Pyongyang.
So I have never seen them in my life.
It just had a portrait of my father and father’s
elder brother and grandmother in a living room..
So I used to go out to meet my grandmother
by spreading the imaginary wings.
My grandfather is man of the legend.
My father grew up without knowing
his face.
. My father lived
a painful life and died..
Everyone at that time had to go through
life of fetter like this ...
Originally, our home country is not
Pyongyang at North Korea...
It's a Soungchun county to the
northeast of Pyongyang.
The grandfather of my family is also
saying that he was a policeman.
Or it is said that he was a wholesaler who
supplied food ingredients to restaurants.
I do not know whose story is right.
Or maybe they're both wrong or
right.
. But my
grandfather was a terrible policeman who the story can be said to be a
pro-Japanese group.
It may
be a shameful story of the house.
But
it does not make the history of the house beautify and do not distort too.
. It
is the child's responsibility to convey and describe without increase and
decrease.
It is the spirit of human nature.
"These days, autobiographies and
memoirs turn pro-Japanese group into
independent troops against Japan..
It's fashionable to make a memoir
by beautifying pro-Japanese group as a patriot.
It puts on makeup of the image and make
pro-Japanese group beautification to excellent
person often.
It says a lie and makes a mythological
figure like a great man in this time.
"
"One of the stories I heard growing
up was that my grandmother was very much a heroine.
The story of being strong-willed is coming down.
It is said that my grandmother was enthusiastic.
She also liked shamanism and I heard that she
kept her idols in her house.
In the old days, everyone wanted to get
rid of the sundry evil spirits and get a wealth and prosperity
It is still like with the almighty dollar principle
of modern people .
It's the same with humans.
Also, one of the secret facts was that grandfather
married my grandmother to my second
wife.
The grandmother gave birth to five
children from her ex-husband.
.. But I wonder how her could got married again with my grandfather.
It may
have been common sense for the customs and emotions at that time,
Why
my grandfather
with former wife and children want to marry
with my grandmother who has with former husband and children?
The big brother who came down from Pyongyang of North Korea told me that he was married my
grandmother because he was delivering food stuff to her who managed a
restaurant as a wholesaler.
Because they knew each other in terms of
trade
they became friendly.
So my grandmother gave birth 7children
totally.
But Could they ever
marry with on their selves freely?
At that time, everybody gave birth to
about 10 children generally..
Of course, many of them died for not
exceeding one year.
I think that it could not have even
contraceptive, and of natural delivery usually .
This generation
which it is hard to raise a baby like now is very different with old generation
as much as the sky and the land are different .”
" The emotions and circumstances in the
19th century when your grandmother lived, will be different with this time very
much. "
"Everything changes.
Today is different and tomorrow is another
life.
It
seems to me that it is the essence and core of life to find my inner self in the
flowing life.
But It have a legend which the funny fact is that my grandmother's
father was a wealthy and high and
prominent office
It means that my grandmother was a rich
daughter.
. It's a mystery
why a rich daughter has twice wedding as
mistress.
My father was grown up without a grandfather.
The story of growing up in a widow 's
house also comes down in our family.
My grandfather, my father and my father’s
elder brother have been living in Pyongyang poorly . "
"In the old days, it was customary for
everybody to have a second wife or mistress at that time."
"Yes, it was customary to have mistress.
But the problem is that my grandmother's
father has been treating my grandfather as a good for nothing.
The story is coming down. "
"Why did not your grandmother's father
like your grandfather ?"
"I do not know whether my grandfather
was poor or bad man or Japan policeman.
Perhaps my grandmother's father dislike that
my grandmother was married as my grandfather's
mistress.
I thought my grandmother’s father felt badly in his mood, or his honor has
disappeared.
Or because the emotions of the time had
been thought very badly about this fact
at his daughter has wedding twice.
I do not even understand why the daughter
of rich man was married poor grandfather.
But my grandmother loved my elder father and my father terribly, and I heard
that she lived But my grandmother loved my great father and father terribly,
and I heard that she lived with his two sons until she died in Pyongyang.
"
"Have not you
ever seen Grandma?"
"Yes, I have never seen my grandmother,
but I could only see her through the portrait which grandmother and elder
father and father was drawn.”
“Didn’t you know the
concept of my grandparents and relatives because I have no them ?’
"I grew up without
knowing about the concept of my
relatives.
I knew that my
family’ relationship is thin after I got
married .
. When
I was a kid, of course it was a routine thing.
Especially my elder
father went to elementary school in Pyongyang.
He always got good grades when he went to school.
He had a lot of
praise and affection from my grandmother.
I grew up listening to the story from my
mother.
But unfortunately, my father did not go to
school.
He was so poor that his family can not
support to go to school because he is second son in his family.
My mother said me this story sorrowfully.
It's a
huge inconceivable event for now.
But at the time, it was common living
condition in life .
Rather, it was a luxury going to school .
It was a time to think of going to school.
It was a tearful era of the 1920s ...
My mother used to say to me that my cousin
studied well in studying because my cousin resemble like a elder father. "
"There may be a lot of secret stories
in Pyongyang. "
"I will also tell you about story of the
secret history in my family.
My heart is hurried and are ashamed.
Must I announce the story of my family to
the world?
It is kind of embarrassing, and unfamiliar
for me now.
I just talked to each other but I did not
think that I would tell you life .
Now that I have reserved it, I have shaped
it as a novel.
Someday I wanted to tell to you about
my life journey.
So I pop out of the world, and tell to more
people about my story
It would be nice to find a creative way if
we could reduce the number of trial and error when we encountered in our life
path filled with frustration and suffering .
This is the cause to tell you.”
"Thanks for telling me honestly “
“It is a human fate that everyone can
carry their own burdens and walk the path of life.
It just want to be more intelligent and
smart in life.
. To do that, it have been playing around and reading a lot of
books since it was a child .
It have to think a lot about things around
and write a lot about yourself. "
"Yes, life, you are a wise man and a
terminator.
Let
me know a lot of your wisdom, knowledge and meaning of life ... "
I am thrilled to be able to tell the
history of my family and me .
It's a story that nobody cares about.
It's also a family history that it not
proud of.
I was just trying to pass it but keep just
in the heart deeply .
Unexpectedly I am fighting alone and I am
glad that you are interested in my story.
It seems to meet the millionaire army.
The power springs up by itself.
It was probably 10 or 20 years ago.
I asked to my olderhe half brother about
the history of our family who was working
in Dongdaemun market in Jongno at Seoul in Korea.
Because I wondered about the history of our family
He was very embarrassed.
The father knew the case.
I remember long time that my father was scolded me to investigate my father's bad career of family.
It's
already been decades ago, and now I'm stamped on my brain ...
Sad self-portrait ..
Of course, I thought that my father and
his great father were the children of the afterlife, and that the half-brother
was a child, so I did not have such a problem.
Of course, because my father and my elder
father are the children of my grandfather’s second wife, and my elder half
brother is a grandson my grandfather’s first wife.
. So I thought that
it had a problem.
I know it's too old to have family
relations ... "
Historically, there was a system of status
in the Joseon Dynasty (A.D 1392-1910).
My father and elder half-brother did not
tell me because the emotions of Joseon Dynasty (A.D 1392-1910) had the distinction against the child by a concubine.
Humans have a protective instinct that
they do not want to talk about pain and suffering that they have felt from
their childhood.
“I wonder how she looks and hope to meet
her.
What kind of my grandmother? ...
She would have loved her grandchildren me
very much ...
Why my grandmother loved the first son just and dislike the second son?
"
I have sketched grandma and grandfather
about this outline.
Next time, I will sketch the story of my
father, my grandfather, and my mother's Pyongyang marriage.
Chapter
7 Section 2 Pyongyang Period
In
last 7-1, I talked about my grandmother and grandfather for a while.
Let
me tell you about my parents' time in Pyongyang this time.
So
let's light up the Pyongyang era really.
In
the meantime, I will explain an overview of what kind of land Pyongyang is.
.
It
is historical reason to solve the Pyongyang story about my family after that.
Let
me briefly list my knowledge of history on the land of Pyongyang..
Looking
at Pyongyang from Korean map, the Daedong River flows slowly through Pyongyang
as Seoul flows into the Han River .
It
tells the story of Goh-joseon, the nation of the first Korean people
established in 2333 in Samguk Yusa(Memorabilia of the Three Kingdoms),
There is a
story that the capital of ancient kingdom Gojoseon was Pyongyang
The
founding myth of Gojoseon tells the myth of the Tan-gun, the founding father of the Korean nation that came down only by oral tradition from the people at that
time.
One
day, Korean God (Hwan-in) calls on his son Hwan-woong to go down to earth and
build a new kingdom of God.
So,
God’s son Hwan-woong headed 3,000 people down to Taebaek (God’s city) and found
Gojoseon.
. Some scholars say that
the city of God is the city near the Yalu River, Pyongyang, and rivers near
Manchuria.
Like it, Pyongyang is the center of eternal
history and Northeast Asian civilization.
It
is highly probable that the Daedong
River was the birthplace of Northeast Asian civilization, as the four major civilizations
at first inhuman being took place on the big riverside
After
that, Gojoseon kingdom, which was built in 2333 BC, was destroyed by the
Chinese Han kingdom in 108 BC
After
that, many countries such as Silla, Baekje, Koguryeo, was established on 1st century BC in Korea.
The
capital of Goguryeo kingdom(1st century B.C.~A.D 668) is Pyongyang.
From
here, Pyongyang was reborn as a place full of the uncompromising attitude of mind
with the militaristic spirit.
Goguryeo
kingdom never yielded to the Chinese kingdoms, which soon disappeared.
As
a loser in Northeast Asia, he writes his year number and starts to spread his
unmanned spirit all over the world like the center of the world.
It
used his name of era as a supreme ruler in Northeast Asia.
Like
the center of the world, it starts to spread it’s the spirit of soldier all over the world.
So
Goguryeo kingdom(1st century B.C.~A.D 668) had to fight with China.
Goguryeo kingdom
fought against Chinese Su Dynasty and destroyed it.
The next
time they fight with the Chinese Tang Dynasty several times, they could win and
end by the Chinese Tang Dynasty.
However,
their descendants also built Balhae, Corea, Hu-gold and Qing , competing with
China .
and
subjugating China to build the Qing Dynasty
Goguryeo kingdom
descendants competes with China and conquered
China to build the Qing Dynasty.
It
is thought that there is the Taedong River of Pyongyang in the center of Korean
history
However
it's of a historical leap a bit.
To
go to Manchuria, you must cross the Taedong River.
Korean war had to go through Pyongyang, so it was caught
up in the center of war.
In the Joseon Dynasty, it is recognized as a
land of exile, a land of rebellion, and a land of jealous looks
Pyongyang city
is always recognized as a land of revolution. In the time of Goryeo and the Joseon Dynasty
Even
now, the people of Pyongyang who drink the water of the Taedong River have been
regarded as American thorns.
.For
the Chinese, it can be said that it is considered to be a lot of troubles.
There
is no good and evil in history .
There
is no superiority and inferiority in civilization.
There
is only difference and gap one another .
Then
it come back to my family story.
As
soon as my father graduated from elementary school, my father would go through
Pyongyang, where was born with new the dawn of modernization around 1930.
At
that time, Japanese people owned a lot of shops in Korea , and Japan was forced to occupy by force about the politic and economy of Korea
It
might be a disgraceful thing to go under
the Japanese and live a clerk's life in modern
opinion..
From
that point of view, there was no choice.
It
was the period of Japanese occupation of suffering where the urgency of poverty
was buried.
If
I think about it now, I think my father get a job in a big company.
The
nightlife in Pyongyang was a miracle itself.
Perhaps
the city of Pyongyang was so bright that grandmother and father could not even see and visit.
. My father got a job at a
nearby Japan shop through a neighbor.
He
took my grandmother to Pyongyang and got a one room of a corner of at Pyongyang city and so
started living in Pyongyang.
The
big city Pyongyang was a new world as far as sky and land for my father who
grew up in Sungcheon province in country rural area.
Pyongyang was a perfect city to grow dreams of blub
clouds.
It
was the land of the youth dream for the boiling youth for my father.
. The salary was a tiny
paycheck envelope given to one shop owner, but his father has great hopes and
aspirations.
The
salary paid to Japan shop owner was small money.
But my father has great hopes and
aspirations.
Because at that time, he was abused by
receiving the shame and despair from the Japan boss, but he started to learn the management of the
high-tech store.
Japan shop’s owner was too harsh and inhuman.
. Also, my father, who was
a young man, will collect his seed money someday and revive again his a drop-down family though clerk life .
He
think that he will build a business base
after saving money and build a house.
He
determined to become a young venture CEO who is talking about these days.
Now,
, he make a mind to cut off the chains of life yoke by breaking the chain of these
pitiful poverty
He
pledge to widen his wings into a world of abundance.
But
reality was not at easy but difficult for a young man.
There
is a funny episode in our house.
Maybe
it's a story of a sad story rather than a funny story.
Japan
shop owner always used to say to my
father, "Do not cause trouble to others."
And
"The shopkeeper should be honest.'
It
is Japanese cultural expression.
.Because
Japan is an island nation, there are a lot of cases when it is confined to an
island and there are many cases that cause trouble to others.
Japan
peoples always was careful, so I think that Japan custom have
come to Korea.
My
father always kept these words in his heart as a lesson.
So
he wanted to hear the nickname ‘ Guarantee Check '.
He
said me that it has been a long time since I tried not to lose my credit to
others.
.Perhaps
in 1950(Korean war), he ran on a US military truck to South Korea alone.
It
was the happiest time to live in Pyongyang for about 20 years with his mother ,
till escape from Pyongyang to South
Korea.
After that, after the 6.25 of Korean war everything became ashes and his property disappeared.
.
However, when my father came to South
Korea for the refuge, he was born again
as a merchant and began to revive in our family.
In
other words, the precious merchant spirit of our family begins to bloom flowers
.Sometimes
SKYMOM feels many times when there are the spirits of scholar and merchant in my
body’ DNA.
He
combined a branch called a merchant on the foundation of the scholar.
.Since
then, he has lived all his life without regret as a merchant.
I
think it is because of the store experience which he learned after graduating
from elementary school and the spirit of scholar.
Of
course, my father was born in the background of the spirit of scholar, so he
would be fortunate of the outstanding ability...
In
broad terms, all these things come from to be the virtues of our ancestors.
Even
today, I think that all happy life which I spent my childhood comfortably, joyfully
and happily, and receive university education with delight come from the
virtues of my parents..
.It
is the victory of my parents' persistent spirit of merchant and scholar.
At
this time, if my father did not come to Pyongyang and did not get a job, SKYMOM
would be born probably as a child of a normal farmer and would live in North Korea until now .
As
such, my father’ strategy and
judgments shine continuously . Next I
have to tell you about my father's marriage story.
.
Chapter 7 Paragraph 3 : Romance of
parents
Parents
are dead, but their romance always remains an echo for me (SKYMOM)
It was a nagging and the instructions of
the departed
and a bell of love, which had to be heard frequently .
This is the content.
My
grandmother, who lived in Pyongyang around 1940, made a marriage broker for her
daughter-in-law.
Finally,
the marriage broker who knew my mother and the Pyongyang marriage broker were
connected with each other
Matchmaking
story comes and goes, and finally parents are married by matchmaking.
But
when it looks inside, it has a amazed story.
It
is also the birthplace of the famous General Ulji Mundeok
Unfortunately,
it is not a free marriage in which men and women love each other at this time.
It
is a matchmaking marriage that matchmakers connect to each other..
In
some cases, they did not know about each other's family each other before they married .
My parents are also married without knowing
each other, and they are married to old-fashioned marriages that see each
other's faces on wedding day.
One day when
marriage ceremony ripens,
my grandfather
and my father go to my mother’s country to receive a marriage date at their home.
The azalea and a golden-bell tree blooms on the mountains
and the cherry blossoms at street in the
Pyongyang city as the weather is springtime.
The village
where my mother lived is an orchard
which Apples and pears were growing all the time. .
.It was a step
for father’s house of my mother to go outside.
In ancient
times, it is said that there is a certificate such as a marriage pledge written
in Chinese to make a wedding.
Of
course, so the pledge was in Chinese, my father is going to bring up an expert
who is good at Chinese writing.
At that time, first my father met a father of my mother who will become my mother’s father .
My father knew that my mother’s father is an intellectual who
knows Chinese text well and writes well.
.My father was
surprised to know that my mother’s father is the owner of the village with a large
orchard and is the eldest grandson
by the eldest son of the scalar family.
But
my mother’s father was very embarrassed that he finds my father who has been
poor and has never learned when he meets my father.
This
marriage was accomplished through matchmaker of my mother’s second mother.
So
when he knew wrong marriage, he got mad and beat her wife, who was second wife,
with a broomstick.
He was separated from by death about my first wife.
"Stupid,
you chose the stupid matchmaker and
ruined marriage!" he was sighing.
My
mother’s second mother bled in her head much as he hit hardly.
My
mother's second mother said that "I will go to the Japanese police “ with complaint.
It
is a happening that can happen in the situation at that time.
My
grandfather also told and asked my
mother
."It
is spilled water anyway.
You must marry and live well! "
It’s reminiscences said to have regretted that my
mother’s father says "I wish my father’s
elder brother would become my son-in-law."
I
think my mother’s father gave a good score for my father’s elder brother rather than my father.
So my
mother says me that "it should never go with two persons and have to go out alone because it has a
comparison about two , when it happen the marriage meeting” ,
It
also tells stories like these legends.
My
mother’s mother was a well - known beautiful woman in the city..
One day
mother of my mother went to shopping in downtown.
However,
it is said that a certain Japanese police man came to the house as the mother’s
beauty of my mother..
So father
of my mother says Japanese police man that "this woman is my wife. Do not
come back again”.
It
also have a famous legend that a father of my mother kicked Japanese police man
out of the house.
I
think that the mother of my mother was like a beautiful woman as much as North
Korean have very beautiful girls..
I
wish I could see you once in my dreams ...
Thus, the
wealthy daughter of the rich man has the newly-built unmatched honeymoon home
in Pyongyang with the son of the poor man.
New Street of Pyongyang
was a glorious and awesome landscape..
But the honeymoon
house that my mother had to live in was a shabby room of rent .
So one day my
mother went to the village of my mother’s father.
Then she said
him “dad, I can not live in a house in the poor room in Pyongyang. It's too
poor to eat and live.
It is difficult to live
even though it is needlework for pay
”
She had a
complaint to him and then he said her that
I will buy you a house and move away from your husband’s mother house and make a honeymoon
home.
A grandfather could
not hide his sorry heart for his eldest daughter because of a marriage that
does not fit for each other.
My mother’s
father promise that he will buy my mother a house in a way to compensate for
the wrong marriage.
However, my
father’s mother said that “I can not consent
branch family.. It is not about branch family while I am alive. After I'm dead,
you can live in branch family.”.
So you should go to move out a big house which have with
three shops with my father’s mother at Pyongyang’s peak.
However, due to
the 6.25 war, my mother’s house was severely damaged by US military B-29
bombing.
And my parents felt sad parting to leave Pyongyang house forever as a result of evacuation to
south Korea
My parents have
been evacuated to South Korea for a while due to the Korean War.
However, my
parents could not imagine that there will be a truce line which can not go to Pyongyang..
Of course, my
parents think that North Korea is not a place to live for merchants.
My home is a
Christian family that does not like the Communist Party.
My parents was forced to evacuate to the south body only
with all my house and property left.
My parents could not think of it as a dream that could
not go to Pyongyang forever.
"The 38th
line is the enemy .!" said mom.
It occurs that reincarnation recalls my mother's face.
“Good
bye Daedong River
Bye Moran peak.
I can not
forget you forever.
I drank the
water from the Taedong River, and grown up here .
Then I looked
up at Moran peak and was blooming with a
flower youth.
It's goodbye
forever now.
So long Daedong
river.
God bye Moran
peak.”
She said good
bye when was crossing the frozen Daedong
River at Korean war
My parents were
destined to end up not seeing the Daedong River and Moran peak of a lot sadness in their life time.
She once told me this story.
On my way of
shopping to the down at Pyongyang, father said mother that .
“Honey, when
you go out wearing a bright Korean traditional clothes , all the others are
staring at you, because you are so beautiful.
So I want to
you go out wearing shabby clothes.
Then other peoples will not look at you because you are similar with me. "
Mother always was proud of missing her beauty of young days.
. So next time,
I will sketch the days of Busan refugees.
Chapter
7 section 4
Seoul's
childhood landscape after the Korean war
On
Sunday, June 25, 1950, north Korea invades South Korea, causing Korean war.
The
Korean War is causing the two Koreas to burn and destroy almost all of them,
resulting in the desolation of their land.
The
Korean War destroyed and burned almost all of the Korean peninsula.
So
Korea was sad to be destroyed in whole country.
In
the 1960s, the ruins of the aftermath of the war aftermath swept the Korean
War.
In
the 1960s, the damage from the aftermath of the Korean War was beyond
imagination.
At
that time, Korea was the ruin itself.
So
a foreigner who was a war correspondent during the 625 war used to criticize,
'Can a rose bloom from a pile of garbage!'
Under
the name of red unification, communists in North Korea waged war on the Korean
peninsula.
It
was a riot of communist Koreans who had no historical consciousness.
Park
Heon-young and Kim Il-sung are host of the Korean War.
They
are war criminals in Korean history..
The
Korean War of 625 was a painful and devastating war that killed millions of Korean people and foreign peoples.
Foreigners
include US soldiers and Chinese soldiers.
I
just hope that this Korean war will
never happen again.
When
I was a child, I remember the days happily during Hyehwa elementary School.
My
house of child food was Korean traditional style House which is located behind Hyehwa Station
in Seoul's castle town.
It
occurs dimly Korean traditional house
which is located behind Hyehwa Station in Seoul's main gate, the narrow alley
in the neighborhood, the old road that had been went to elementary School, Rotary fountain. blue back garden of
small mountain , view of neighborhoods
across the street, neighborhood Church Buildings and Crosses, Chime bells and
shouts of children born after the Korean War.
Every
day, it used to take tests at my elementary School in the strongest feelings in the
deepest memories that I have ever felt when I was young.
Command
of the teacher goes on with test.
“Do
not take your eyes off the test paper until the bell rings ding-dong. '’
Now,
60 years have passed, but the scary and cruel voice of the teacher at elementary
School continues to hover in my ears.
I will
not take my eyes off it until one minute and one second even on the test paper
of life,
The
test paper is now replaced by writing paper and dances on this.
Even
now, I don't understand why teachers had to take exams and grade them by
handing them out every day.
At
that time, the teachers became at the sky and the level of gangsters carrying
clubs.
From
the perspective of the child…
Teacher’s
words were the law, and the school was the military academy
At
that time elementary School was a terrible academy that couldn't
find the other than obedience.
At
that time, the forceful atmosphere to enter a prestigious secondary school was
the best order for the students of
elementary school.
Nevertheless,
the days of the elementary school were
very different from the secondary school.
However,
there was a little romantic space where young concentric flowers are essential
in time of elementary school .
It
was allowed to read books of child’s story and biography of great man .
It
was also allowed to spend time through playing soccer with the children friends
of neighborhood in a narrow alleyway
As
far as education is concerned, Korea's education situation is not much
different then or now.
From
elementary school, suffering from entrance examination hell almost reached the
Choking level from view of SKYMOM.
The
Korean test is sufficient to brainwash the human brain and body from elementary
school to college.
He was
a baby boomer generation, so his school class had a morning class and afternoon
class with two-part classes.
In some cases, the memory of the three-part
classes is new.
There
were so many young students that the classroom was not enough in his childhood.
It
is an era of population cliffs, so numbers of elementary school are decreasing in
Seoul.
He
feels that many years have passed.
As
a child, SKYMOM was sickly.
So he fells down open, caught a cold, and it also
occurs tonsillitis and had a lot of heat.
However,
there are no exceptions to the daily test time.
He
had to keep a strict unwritten rule which he had to take the test in my
elementary school when he was sick.
The
elementary school was a military academy for children.
It is
still not growing the trembling of the
childhood front the test papers in his mind.
A
inner mind of child who can't let go is
still crouched alive in his deep mind.
It
is always written in the life record written by elementary teachers.
'As
a introspective child ’
When
I was young, I thought that elementary teachers would write as same to anyone.
It's
been a long time until I know what the
word means.
Indeed,
many hours passed by before you realize it.
An
introverted, unfamiliar, shy child is only from within and has not grown
strong.
It's
bleak, and it's embedded in the inner cave as a rebellious child.
Others say that the body grows and the heart
grows.
Why
can't an inner child of SKYMOM who crouch from his heart grow up?
As
a child, the elementary school was a military training center for young
children.
The
teacher's teachings are strict training in the elementary school.
Once
I was just getting into elementary School.
I was so scared and shy that I couldn't go to
the bathroom in the class .
So
I couldn't stand to take a dump in class
so had to shit in class..
The children next to me said, 'Hey, it smells
shit here. ”
The
teacher didn't even come near his seat.
SKYMOM
went home, dropping a bunch of shit.
He told his mother who she wore Korean traditional clothing and was going out.
So
she is angry.
"Why
didn't you tell your teacher you'd go to the bathroom?" she scolded SKYMOM.
'If
I had the courage, I would go to the
bathroom ... ’
The
inner child develops rebellion again.
This
landscape is hidden in it.
When
he was in the 4th grade, he was coming home on the autumn day.
After
school he went to art school.
The
art teacher said to young me "today,
draw General Yi Sun-shin on the drawing paper.
This
is because General Yi Sun-sin is a great hero of Koreans.
At
that time and now, he didn't have the ability to make sketches, and his art
teacher demanded him a difficult picture.
He
was looking at the Western statues with reluctantly and blank mind.
At
that time the kind art teacher approached him and picked up a yellow colored
pencil kindly and created General Yi Sun-sin at the level of Picasso.
Until
a while ago, nothing was alive in white paper.
Admiral
Yi Sun-Shin is alive by his hands with the magic of his teacher, and the lively
picture is unfolded like magic.
The
next coloring is to eat bread.
It
is very easy for SKYMOM.
It's
enough to fill painting just in your favorite pretty colors, that is, red,
yellow, and blue on the drawing paper
However,
the romantic life that he did not want to attend art academy ended soon.
Strict
father knew SKYMOM’s mind who is not interested in drawing ..
SKYMOM’s
father censored the drawing paper.
There
were many paintings that escaped from the art academy, fluttering in the
drawing paper,
The conclusion is obvious.
“Stop going to art academy right now”
His
father’s strict command ordered to his
mind.
Even
now, he visits the art museum to
appreciate the paintings as a child,.
It
was an art class that I didn't like drawing in my childhood, but now I'm a friendly
friend.
It
was an art class that he didn't like drawing in my childhood, but now painting becomes a friendly friend for him.
The
mind, the aptitude, and the taste change with time. like all things.
Years
flow like a river.
The
childhood’s devil is now turned into a companion at old age.
Here's
a travel sketches of Busan( Korean Port city) that SKYMOM wrote in elementary
school.
It
writes down as it is , what he wrote at that time.
It
is a travel diary in a literary book created by the writing teacher's homework
during the first year of junior high school writing.
This
travel diary was recorded the literary book created by teacher's homework
during the first year of junior high school writing.
[ ‘In
Pusan’
It
was in the fifth grade of elementary school on 1968 ..
I
went to Pusan and played with my older brother and sisters.
It's
the day I've been waiting for and waiting for.
It
was a sunny morning on August 3, 1968.
I
was excited for breakfast and prepared to go picnic.
It could
not represent any word as wonderful joy.
After
greeting my parents, I went to Seoul Station and bought a ticket and got on the
train.
After
waiting for about 20 minutes, the train started moving slowly.
Looking
at the window, a electronic pole that soared high in the sky stood back to back
..
After
about 10 minutes, I could see the farmland.
I
could see my endless farmland at a glance, and it seemed to please my heart
even more.
Time
has passed.
I
was in the train about 3 hours, so the refreshing mind disappeared and I even fell
a boring mind.
My
train passed the cave, crossed the river, and arrived in Pusan city.
As
we got off the train and passed through Pusan Station, our father's friend came out to meet us.
He
took us to his home.
The
day was so tiring that I went straight into the bed.
The
next morning we went to Songdo beach in Pusan city.
However,
Songdo beach was dirty so I do not want to swim.
But
I can't.
If
it comes for a swimming, I must get into
swimming in sea..
Swimming
was not fun for me.
When
I got home, I feel tired continuously .
The
next day I went to Haeundae beach and played with my father's friend's family.
But
it suddenly began to rain while playing and swimming,.
I
came back house inevitably..
The
next day I went to Dadepo beach and
played with swimming .
Dadepo
beach was not as clean as Haeundae beach
.
However,
at low tide, it was surprising that if you go out of 50-60m, there is a place
where there is no water in some places, and even a place where there is water
does not reach your knees.
However,
there is no water anywhere in 50-60yard at low tide.
It
was surprising that place where the sea water is located does not even cover
the knee.
the place where the water was, not even the
knees.
The next day I went to Taejongdae famous
tourist resort at Pusan.
I
was scared to go on the cliff by bus.
In
Taejongdae tourist resort, I just played without swimming.
.
The rolling waves . The windless horizon.
Looking at this beautiful scenery, I also
wanted to live quietly in this place.
The next day was Sunday.
We went to the Northeastern Church with Lim of
my father’s friend.
The Northeastern Church stood magnificently
next to Ungam Park.
It seemed bigger than the church I attended.
In the evening, we took a picture at Ungam
Park and watched it.
The next day was the last day to play in Pusan.
However, I did not go to Haeundae beach because of diarrhea.
I was bored and nervous when I was lying at
home.
The next day we went to Pusan Station after
packing the suitcase.
I
thought about having fun playing at Pusan in trains, so I just wanted to play
more at Pusan. ”]
SKYMOM’s
young heart is melting well at the book
of travel to Pusan during his elementary
school .
At
that time, Pusan city was the most distant region for SKYMOM, and it was the birthplace of
Bethlehem for SKYMOM.
As SKYMOM
is standing in the middle of age, it is the beginning of book of travel filled young
mind which is full of regret.
