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SKYMOM Novel Contents prologue 1. Space 2. EARTH 3. Life 4. Humanity 5. World History 6. Korean History 7. SKY MOM 8. World Government epilogue prologue My name is SKYMOM. SKYMOM has been on the Korean peninsula for over 60 years now. I want to borrow story of a novel type to develop a Long March of my life . Would you please listen my story as we walk along the trail and talk about the two of us? So let's start. Story is fun. The story is so easy. The story gives us many historical lessons. The basic motivation for writing this novel begins in the year of 1976. I will go back to those days and recall the time and talk a story. At that time, I must give the mood first. SKYMOM failed an entrance exam to enter university at Seoul in Korea in the year of 1976. Naturally, I had to enroll in a private school to prepare entrance exams of university for the next chance in downtown. I had to repeat the high school course for a year for university entrance examination repeatedly. This time was meant times that were embarrassed and frustrated for SKYMOM. At that time, the general view which is a high school graduate person who is waiting for another chance to enter a college was to pass the prestigious universities only for the parents., This way was recognized as the only way to be the path of success in life. Looking at other roads was considered a departure for what was considered a bad way. I had been lived in hell of study for an entrance examination for the most time of my life. Everyone had been became a uniform model person who naturally formed. This was a natural era situation. In other words, it has become the person of test style who choose one of four test problems . Naturally… The era has made us an end product as a stuffed animal with a robot. . But SKYMOM did not have interest in such a viewpoint and could not feel very interest. Why didn’t SKYMOM feel interested about that? First, it was exhausted by education of memory which is centered on excessive entrance examination. it was hard to reach the goal point towards the entrance examination, physically with the discharge finished, The second reason was that SKYMOM did not have any interest in the regular course that get good grades and next getting a job at a great company and being promoted to director general manager and CEO after passing a good prestigious university, And finally, because it was interested in the question of 'what is life?' I was less nervous about the entrance examination because I was intimidated by the question. Rather, SKYMOM escaped entrance examination as the prison through the question. The question became my hideout. I was going into another world on the basis of the question. So the journey of the exile of the SKYMOM begins .. Maybe it is a meeting of fate for me who likes to read the life of a great man, fairy tales and novels from childhood.. When everyone was concentrating on the entrance examination and studied to enter university , SKYMOM was run off the track. I began to walk the path of self-exile filled with wondrous and reckless wandering about life. So one of the friends I met at the road was a novel. Through my novel , I express the pain and frustration that SKYMOM live and feel, and my novel leads me toward the completion of life in the feeling of conceiving a new life So let's walk together and talk with me along the paths of the exile where SKYMOM had to walk. I do not know whether it was a thorny field or a flower way to heaven . I guess that it is confirmed about time to die. If you know that it is a judgment , it will be a very subjective, contradictory and temporary decision only. Looking back at the young days that had to go the long march and I will follow the road. In one corner of the mind, a phrase in a poem comes from my mind The light of the meadow! Glory of flowers! God bless me! Glory to me. 1. space The SKYMOM had gone camping at city of Gongju with SKYMOM’s friends when SKYMOM was secondary in high school. It is the first capital of Paekche kingdom( B.C.100-A.D. 660) during the Three Kingdoms period at Korea. This city is also a historic city with a long history. Korea 's situation in the 1970s was an economic leap. One family was poor and lacked supplies. It was a time when 7-8 high school students had to camp in a single A-type tent for two to three people. So, it naturally happened a natural situation where we had to sleep at night by dividing into 2 groups. Originally, SKYMOM sleeps well anywhere , so I went to sleep in a tent and was going to sleep in a tent. and then felt a kick about 1-2 o'clock in the morning “Who is this? Why?” “Hey. get up and I want to sleep in the tent.” The friend is just laying on the grass and feeling the cold of the body and waking up SKYMOM. The SKYMOM wakes up and stays out of the tent and sees the sky. At that time, the sky was welcoming to me and was making an amazing space show for me. It was a spectacular sight not seen in the city center like Seoul where the SKYMOM has lived for a lifetime. The sum total of tens of thousands of stars, which are stuck in the night sky, is truly a highlight and joy itself. 'How can it be so vast, unchangeable and beautiful?' The space was the person who initiated beauty and conversion and was the terminator. But it also came to the conclusion that it could have been transformed into fear and disgrace. It could have been extreme in the process. Then why could we just start the first rush from the universe? . The reason is simple and clear The beginning of our life comes from space and the end of our life is returned back to space. Because the universe is the beginning and the end. We come from space and are living on this earth. Humans are the children of the earth. As it is, Earth is a product of the universe. So my story begins in the beginning universe. It is because we can illuminate the future after the past and after today ... Humans are just bacteria that live a corner of the earth from the perspective of this earth. So here is the essential reason to think and learn our universe which is our home originally all the time. There are about 100 billion galaxies in the universe. There are about 100 billion planets in the galaxies. Of course, this is only a statistical approach, I remember the story of a junior who majored in astronomy. How many galaxies exist beyond our imagination? Is it possible to have an astronomical number that surpasses the a great number of immeasurability? The SKYMOM was just stupid and awesome looking at astronomy books, but I did not need another word. So SKYMOM decided to think of the universe very slowly. I decided to start a conversation with the universe, looking at the clouds and sky everyday. Although it sounds like a silent echo But the silence came back to the story of the more louder sound in my mind. It has become a natural routine because it is the conversation with the most meaningful, friendliest friend. The SKYMOM should begin to say hello to the universe. "Space, Hi! How have you been?" The universe was also very pleased and sent a response. "Hello SKYMOM! How have you been? How are you doing these days? Why have you come to me now? If you came to me earlier, your horizons of awareness would be widened and your insights would have blown up! " The universe sends a smile which goodwill and sadness cross to SKYMOM. "I'm sorry, space. I am glad to have found you now even though I am late. There are a lot of people who can not find you, just lonely, and pass by. I am glad to be here early, with universe ... " "Come on. Come inside and play with me. I have much to show you. There are many gifts available. The jewels which have 10 to 22th power are shining for you. You take it all. " " Really . Thank you very much. " SKYMOM has overflowed with complex feelings of externality and fear and jealousy about his home. SKYMOM came from his house and returned to his home and it was glad about this fact and even was empty. The SKYMOM is a child of the universe. " space ,how old are you ?" “ My age is about 14 billion old. It was born like the big bang theory about 14 billion years from now. In other words, it could be said that the word "logos" was the beginning. " "What? Your age is 14 billion ... " SKYMOM had to tell that I was stunned about your talk. His age is about 14 billion years old ... At the very least, the age of SKYMOM is just over fifty years old. I can not even be a child of a young child compared to the age of the universe. Why does the SKYMOM ask his age and start talking? It is a form of culture of Koreans. The young children of Koreans also ask their age, "How old are you?" Then it decides my friend or junior or senior . This is because the consciousness of the sequence is strong. How can I imagine the age of the universe? " Universe, what have you been doing in the meantime?" "Yes, I was playing with planets in this space and scattered them in the universe. ." As a result, SKYMOM come into mind about the concept of God and books about astronomy. I felt that my mood became more refreshing as I became friends with the universe. It was a time of great solitude rising to the sky, and it became a chance to fall into Narcissism. So let's look at and talk to universe whenever and wherever I am sad or happy , and sick or strong. When I make friends with him, the world will shine like a pearl, and the pain of world will look like worms. But unfortunately I look at the sky to know about the universe. I go to the library and borrow books about the universe. But he was not an easy companion. It was difficult to know his appearance easily. It was like a long thorny field as more knowledge through him is difficult like picking up heavenly stars . Books of astronomy written for the general peoples are mostly written by astronomers. So it was not easy to understand as it was written to fit Astronomer’s level. SKYMOM had the most fatal weakness. In other words, there was not much background knowledge about physics. I was not familiar with physics at birth. So it was difficult to approach as it had to go astronomically through physics . It is reality. Of course, SKYMOM is also the baby boomer generation born after the Korean War. I learned formal education of physics, chemistry and biology when I was in school. But the subject that I was least interested in and did not understand was physics. I had a physical lesson once a week during high school. When the physical teacher came in and lectured, the physical lecture was like the sound of the universe which heard from a far. It was a lot of physics time that it looked like a thin and dark haze. "Universe. When I am in high school, I could not imagine that you were connected with physics.” " "It's okay. What do you do if you do not know me academically? It's only part of the scholars' observation and research. If you do not know about me well, it is no problem . If you live with me continuously, you will become more and more familiar with me. " The universe responded with a gentle and bright smile to me, and gently embraced SKYMOM. "Rather, thank that you just feel comfortable and free, and you think about me steadily,” " What are you talking about? I am rather sorry and thank you. You are the only vast and endless friend. I have no friend like you. Astronomers say that you are vast, but you also have an end. I have no idea what it means, but I do not understand. Then what is next to the end of the universe?” SKYMOM really apologized to the universe and seemed to be sorry.. Being a friend means that you feel a sense of unity between friend and me. A friend comes into my life and I live in the life of a friend. It was because of the consciousness of comrades. This was the sentiment and the justice of Koreans. Yes, Koreans value principle and justice, integrity and loyalty as if Koreans were their own lives. It was peoples who had been lived on. What he is with me is another expression of justice. And more it was a symbol of loyalty and abstraction. In the universe, the sky is the God of Koreans, legend, myth and father. We will have to vanish if the universe exist for us as much as we can not live at the earth if we don’t have the sun. , Today I want to talk back to chapter 1 about the universe for a moment, and I will try to tell the story about the 7th heavenly mother. The table of contents I mentioned last time is as follows SKY Novel Contents prologue 1. Space 2. Earth 3. Life 4. Humanity 5. World History 6. Korean History 7. SKY MOM 8. World Government epilogue However, Chapter 1 requires a great deal of astronomical Knowledge and Chapter 2 requires knowledge of geology . Because the third chapter needs this biological knowledge First of all, I will talk about my surroundings and I will complete chapter 1, chapter 2 and chapter 3 later. Chapter 6 Korean History continues to introduce Korean culture. I will also describe the history of Korea in parallel with culture. This is going to be an alternative to Chapter 6. Chapter 5 World History will be done slowly after it is finished the story of Korean history and culture I will also talk to about footsteps of human being in Chapter 4. Because the world history story was the most enjoyable story time at my Korean high school days. In addition, for human beings, we should be able to appreciate the past. We can clearly recognize the present and predict, plan, and create the future based on the present. It is considered essential. And finally, Chapter 8, The story of the world government, I will look at our global political economy in the future with my old ideas. . Just as the Jews awaited the Messiah, I am waiting for the modern Messiah to be considered a world government. , I think it will inevitably occur that many confusion, war, terror, famine, environmental pollution, and conflict caused by gap between rich and the poor in the current global political and economic situation. I think that the problem can be solved more by the modernization of Mongolian Genghis Khan and The king of Qin Shi Huang, in China. It is meant unification of the world. If we express it in Buddhist form in our country, it is the Maitreya idea. Shamanism is expressed in Jeongamlok ,Korean book. So we are looking forward to establishing a world government. Of course, I think it could be a Don Quixote incident on the negative side. I will write down my thoughts and thoughts later. Chapter 7 SKYMOM First of all, I will try to tell you about the view of the things through SKYMOM , one by one. The summer with accompanied on June come to us My 60th birthday came with me. .Korean thinks that 60th birthday is meant first and list life . Life is sixty years. My heart that meets the 60th birthday is not only terrible, it is also grievous, and the radiant rainbow shines brightly too in my heart . In retrospect Frustration and conflict leads to painful distress I wonder if it was the time of many years. What is left of now It's a lonely, desolate, calm mind... The tiresome examination Trauma which enter university Wounds of my first love The feeling of Love of couple The young faith that ran to the church when a chime bell rings in a childhood The childishness struggle to pursue the rainbow Everywhere is gone. All that's left is Only an old and wretched wolf crying over a desolate field are projected ... Now It's ridiculous ... I know the meaning of things ten years later. I know the meaning of life after I've run out of 60 years. There is a bitter laughing smile. Once again I start our conversation with life. "Hi, how are you? My name is SKYMOM. Your name is life. Who are you and where are you from? " Life answers this. "Yes I am me! I'm a friend with you. When you are tired and lonely, you are a companion to comfort you, to protect you, to cover you. My meaning is 'The sky is blue, the ground is yellow, and it is enough to eat the food of three'. " "Yeah, I used to ask, 'What is life?' I wanted to ask you if I met you. So now I meet you and face you! So now I meet you and face you! What is your meaning? I wanted to ask you why you had to be so painful, wandering and frustrated.” "Well done. As young children fight and grow Child grows up asking about life. Curiosity is the universal value of humanity. It's a passage and a shortcut to meet life . " "Yes, life, you are a mystery, a mirage and a rainbow. Now one day an empty dream is approaching me and smiling for me. Do you want to say me?" "I have a lot to say. Peoples often say my fault, but it's not my fault. That's what original life structure is like ups and downs as wave.. People express it as fate and also as ability. I look forward to you as you expected to me. " "Are you expecting me?” "Yes, really. I'm also cheering for your accomplishments and motivation. " "Are you sure? It is the Copernicus conversion to shake the heaven and earth. " "Yeah, I'm never your bad friend. It's just that you're making me a bad friend. You do not know the inner satisfaction and just look for the rainbow from the outside. " "O.K, fine . I will tell you all the times I had to go through you life. If you listen to your story, your mind will be different. " "Let's hear it!" . Chapter 7-1: story of the house of SKYMOM . Chapter 7-1: story of the house of the SKYMOM I meet a friend of my life and try to solve my inmost thoughts by telling the story that I experienced during life time. "My house was Pyongyang city of North Korea. It is a town that boasts a magnificent view of Manganbong Mountain and pavilion. Often, Korean proverb says, 'If you do not like it, you do not appreciate Pyongyang'. It is often said that Korean proverb says ' I will not go to Pyongyang If I do not like Pyongyang governor.’ Paradoxically, everyone wants to become Pyongyang governor. Because Pyongyang is a beautiful place where the Daedong river flows. Everyone wants to see. In Pyongyang, a woman is beautiful. But it is also the land of an uncompromising attitude of mind. Historically, Pyongyang was land of the Gojoseon dynasty later it was also the capital of Goguryeo dynasty. It is also famous for being the second capital city during the Goryeo dynasty and Joseon dynasty period. And it was also the place where an uncompromising attitude of mind had been resisted against China. Now the problem is that the direction of uncompromising attitude of mind is toward the USA. ... Anyway Pyongyang is a land of historical interest that anyone want to visit Pyongyang. It is also the land where the Taedong River flow through Korean sad feelings . My dad father used to say that It is the first house of Moran-bang tram station and this place is 3000 square feet in crossroads house My father left me a will to visit my parents’ house in Pyongyang before my father passed away. I also want to go to Pyongyang a lifetime. I do not know if I will be able to go to Pyongyang because time is so strange. If I can not go to Pyongyang , I will leave with my only daughter a will to go to Pyongyang. Of course, I keep to tell stories with my nephew. I think it might be a duty, not even my mission which the history of my family deliver to their children frankly . It may also be a logical leap, but it can be seen that knowing the suffering and frustration of the ancestors can prevent them from suffering again like the Jews, It is getting longer.” “. Yeah, it would be fun. Talk me slowly and funny from the root of the family history. Tell me easily , relaxed, , with fun, and with meaningful lessons rather than rushing,... Sky Mom You can do well. Life I'm expecting you Just say it. Naturally" "My family was evacuated from the Pyongyang to South Korea. 6.25 The Korean War is a war in which the North Korean People's Army tanks was driven to the South Korea. During the war, my parents had been evacuated with the narrow escape from death from Pyongyang of North Korea to Pusan city of South Korea . I'll start with the story. In order to do that, I have to start from the story of our grandparents in our family. ... Listen, this story is from the my mother’s story. It's a story created by mosaicking with sculptural information. This story is meant sewing patch work. I will collect some pieces of information and synthesize a little bit of imagination to solve the story. Because my grandmother and grandfather both died in Pyongyang. So I have never seen them in my life. It just had a portrait of my father and father’s elder brother and grandmother in a living room.. So I used to go out to meet my grandmother by spreading the imaginary wings. My grandfather is man of the legend. My father grew up without knowing his face. . My father lived a painful life and died.. Everyone at that time had to go through life of fetter like this ... Originally, our home country is not Pyongyang at North Korea... It's a Soungchun county to the northeast of Pyongyang. The grandfather of my family is also saying that he was a policeman. Or it is said that he was a wholesaler who supplied food ingredients to restaurants. I do not know whose story is right. Or maybe they're both wrong or right. . But my grandfather was a terrible policeman who the story can be said to be a pro-Japanese group. It may be a shameful story of the house. But it does not make the history of the house beautify and do not distort too. . It is the child's responsibility to convey and describe without increase and decrease. It is the spirit of human nature. "These days, autobiographies and memoirs turn pro-Japanese group into independent troops against Japan.. It's fashionable to make a memoir by beautifying pro-Japanese group as a patriot. It puts on makeup of the image and make pro-Japanese group beautification to excellent person often. It says a lie and makes a mythological figure like a great man in this time. " "One of the stories I heard growing up was that my grandmother was very much a heroine. The story of being strong-willed is coming down. It is said that my grandmother was enthusiastic. She also liked shamanism and I heard that she kept her idols in her house. In the old days, everyone wanted to get rid of the sundry evil spirits and get a wealth and prosperity It is still like with the almighty dollar principle of modern people . It's the same with humans. Also, one of the secret facts was that grandfather married my grandmother to my second wife. The grandmother gave birth to five children from her ex-husband. .. But I wonder how her could got married again with my grandfather. It may have been common sense for the customs and emotions at that time, Why my grandfather with former wife and children want to marry with my grandmother who has with former husband and children? The big brother who came down from Pyongyang of North Korea told me that he was married my grandmother because he was delivering food stuff to her who managed a restaurant as a wholesaler. Because they knew each other in terms of trade they became friendly. So my grandmother gave birth 7children totally. But Could they ever marry with on their selves freely? At that time, everybody gave birth to about 10 children generally.. Of course, many of them died for not exceeding one year. I think that it could not have even contraceptive, and of natural delivery usually . This generation which it is hard to raise a baby like now is very different with old generation as much as the sky and the land are different .” " The emotions and circumstances in the 19th century when your grandmother lived, will be different with this time very much. " "Everything changes. Today is different and tomorrow is another life. It seems to me that it is the essence and core of life to find my inner self in the flowing life. But It have a legend which the funny fact is that my grandmother's father was a wealthy and high and prominent office It means that my grandmother was a rich daughter. . It's a mystery why a rich daughter has twice wedding as mistress. My father was grown up without a grandfather. The story of growing up in a widow 's house also comes down in our family. My grandfather, my father and my father’s elder brother have been living in Pyongyang poorly . " "In the old days, it was customary for everybody to have a second wife or mistress at that time." "Yes, it was customary to have mistress. But the problem is that my grandmother's father has been treating my grandfather as a good for nothing. The story is coming down. " "Why did not your grandmother's father like your grandfather ?" "I do not know whether my grandfather was poor or bad man or Japan policeman. Perhaps my grandmother's father dislike that my grandmother was married as my grandfather's mistress. I thought my grandmother’s father felt badly in his mood, or his honor has disappeared. Or because the emotions of the time had been thought very badly about this fact at his daughter has wedding twice. I do not even understand why the daughter of rich man was married poor grandfather. But my grandmother loved my elder father and my father terribly, and I heard that she lived But my grandmother loved my great father and father terribly, and I heard that she lived with his two sons until she died in Pyongyang. " "Have not you ever seen Grandma?" "Yes, I have never seen my grandmother, but I could only see her through the portrait which grandmother and elder father and father was drawn.” “Didn’t you know the concept of my grandparents and relatives because I have no them ?’ "I grew up without knowing about the concept of my relatives. I knew that my family’ relationship is thin after I got married . . When I was a kid, of course it was a routine thing. Especially my elder father went to elementary school in Pyongyang. He always got good grades when he went to school. He had a lot of praise and affection from my grandmother. I grew up listening to the story from my mother. But unfortunately, my father did not go to school. He was so poor that his family can not support to go to school because he is second son in his family. My mother said me this story sorrowfully. It's a huge inconceivable event for now. But at the time, it was common living condition in life . Rather, it was a luxury going to school . It was a time to think of going to school. It was a tearful era of the 1920s ... My mother used to say to me that my cousin studied well in studying because my cousin resemble like a elder father. " "There may be a lot of secret stories in Pyongyang. " "I will also tell you about story of the secret history in my family. My heart is hurried and are ashamed. Must I announce the story of my family to the world? It is kind of embarrassing, and unfamiliar for me now. I just talked to each other but I did not think that I would tell you life . Now that I have reserved it, I have shaped it as a novel. Someday I wanted to tell to you about my life journey. So I pop out of the world, and tell to more people about my story It would be nice to find a creative way if we could reduce the number of trial and error when we encountered in our life path filled with frustration and suffering . This is the cause to tell you.” "Thanks for telling me honestly “ “It is a human fate that everyone can carry their own burdens and walk the path of life. It just want to be more intelligent and smart in life. . To do that, it have been playing around and reading a lot of books since it was a child . It have to think a lot about things around and write a lot about yourself. " "Yes, life, you are a wise man and a terminator. Let me know a lot of your wisdom, knowledge and meaning of life ... " I am thrilled to be able to tell the history of my family and me . It's a story that nobody cares about. It's also a family history that it not proud of. I was just trying to pass it but keep just in the heart deeply . Unexpectedly I am fighting alone and I am glad that you are interested in my story. It seems to meet the millionaire army. The power springs up by itself. It was probably 10 or 20 years ago. I asked to my olderhe half brother about the history of our family who was working in Dongdaemun market in Jongno at Seoul in Korea. Because I wondered about the history of our family He was very embarrassed. The father knew the case. I remember long time that my father was scolded me to investigate my father's bad career of family. It's already been decades ago, and now I'm stamped on my brain ... Sad self-portrait .. Of course, I thought that my father and his great father were the children of the afterlife, and that the half-brother was a child, so I did not have such a problem. Of course, because my father and my elder father are the children of my grandfather’s second wife, and my elder half brother is a grandson my grandfather’s first wife. . So I thought that it had a problem. I know it's too old to have family relations ... " Historically, there was a system of status in the Joseon Dynasty (A.D 1392-1910). My father and elder half-brother did not tell me because the emotions of Joseon Dynasty (A.D 1392-1910) had the distinction against the child by a concubine. Humans have a protective instinct that they do not want to talk about pain and suffering that they have felt from their childhood. “I wonder how she looks and hope to meet her. What kind of my grandmother? ... She would have loved her grandchildren me very much ... Why my grandmother loved the first son just and dislike the second son? " I have sketched grandma and grandfather about this outline. Next time, I will sketch the story of my father, my grandfather, and my mother's Pyongyang marriage. Chapter 7 Section 2 Pyongyang Period In last 7-1, I talked about my grandmother and grandfather for a while. Let me tell you about my parents' time in Pyongyang this time. So let's light up the Pyongyang era really. In the meantime, I will explain an overview of what kind of land Pyongyang is. . It is historical reason to solve the Pyongyang story about my family after that. Let me briefly list my knowledge of history on the land of Pyongyang.. Looking at Pyongyang from Korean map, the Daedong River flows slowly through Pyongyang as Seoul flows into the Han River . It tells the story of Goh-joseon, the nation of the first Korean people established in 2333 in Samguk Yusa(Memorabilia of the Three Kingdoms), There is a story that the capital of ancient kingdom Gojoseon was Pyongyang The founding myth of Gojoseon tells the myth of the Tan-gun, the founding father of the Korean nation that came down only by oral tradition from the people at that time. One day, Korean God (Hwan-in) calls on his son Hwan-woong to go down to earth and build a new kingdom of God. So, God’s son Hwan-woong headed 3,000 people down to Taebaek (God’s city) and found Gojoseon. . Some scholars say that the city of God is the city near the Yalu River, Pyongyang, and rivers near Manchuria. Like it, Pyongyang is the center of eternal history and Northeast Asian civilization. It is highly probable that the Daedong River was the birthplace of Northeast Asian civilization, as the four major civilizations at first inhuman being took place on the big riverside After that, Gojoseon kingdom, which was built in 2333 BC, was destroyed by the Chinese Han kingdom in 108 BC After that, many countries such as Silla, Baekje, Koguryeo, was established on 1st century BC in Korea. The capital of Goguryeo kingdom(1st century B.C.~A.D 668) is Pyongyang. From here, Pyongyang was reborn as a place full of the uncompromising attitude of mind with the militaristic spirit. Goguryeo kingdom never yielded to the Chinese kingdoms, which soon disappeared. As a loser in Northeast Asia, he writes his year number and starts to spread his unmanned spirit all over the world like the center of the world. It used his name of era as a supreme ruler in Northeast Asia. Like the center of the world, it starts to spread it’s the spirit of soldier all over the world. So Goguryeo kingdom(1st century B.C.~A.D 668) had to fight with China. Goguryeo kingdom fought against Chinese Su Dynasty and destroyed it. The next time they fight with the Chinese Tang Dynasty several times, they could win and end by the Chinese Tang Dynasty. However, their descendants also built Balhae, Corea, Hu-gold and Qing , competing with China . and subjugating China to build the Qing Dynasty Goguryeo kingdom descendants competes with China and conquered China to build the Qing Dynasty. It is thought that there is the Taedong River of Pyongyang in the center of Korean history However it's of a historical leap a bit. To go to Manchuria, you must cross the Taedong River. Korean war had to go through Pyongyang, so it was caught up in the center of war. In the Joseon Dynasty, it is recognized as a land of exile, a land of rebellion, and a land of jealous looks Pyongyang city is always recognized as a land of revolution. In the time of Goryeo and the Joseon Dynasty Even now, the people of Pyongyang who drink the water of the Taedong River have been regarded as American thorns. .For the Chinese, it can be said that it is considered to be a lot of troubles. It is a land of proud militarism, and an uncompromising attitude of mind and spirit. There is no good and evil in history . There is no superiority and inferiority in civilization. There is only difference and gap one another . Then it come back to my family story. As soon as my father graduated from elementary school, my father would go through Pyongyang, where was born with new the dawn of modernization around 1930. At that time, Japanese people owned a lot of shops in Korea , and Japan was forced to occupy by force about the politic and economy of Korea It might be a disgraceful thing to go under the Japanese and live a clerk's life in modern opinion.. From that point of view, there was no choice. It was the period of Japanese occupation of suffering where the urgency of poverty was buried. If I think about it now, I think my father get a job in a big company. The nightlife in Pyongyang was a miracle itself. Perhaps the city of Pyongyang was so bright that grandmother and father could not even see and visit. . My father got a job at a nearby Japan shop through a neighbor. He took my grandmother to Pyongyang and got a one room of a corner of at Pyongyang city and so started living in Pyongyang. The big city Pyongyang was a new world as far as sky and land for my father who grew up in Sungcheon province in country rural area. Pyongyang was a perfect city to grow dreams of blub clouds. It was the land of the youth dream for the boiling youth for my father. . The salary was a tiny paycheck envelope given to one shop owner, but his father has great hopes and aspirations. The salary paid to Japan shop owner was small money. But my father has great hopes and aspirations. Because at that time, he was abused by receiving the shame and despair from the Japan boss, but he started to learn the management of the high-tech store. Japan shop’s owner was too harsh and inhuman. . Also, my father, who was a young man, will collect his seed money someday and revive again his a drop-down family though clerk life . He think that he will build a business base after saving money and build a house. He determined to become a young venture CEO who is talking about these days. Now, , he make a mind to cut off the chains of life yoke by breaking the chain of these pitiful poverty He pledge to widen his wings into a world of abundance. But reality was not at easy but difficult for a young man. There is a funny episode in our house. Maybe it's a story of a sad story rather than a funny story. Japan shop owner always used to say to my father, "Do not cause trouble to others." And "The shopkeeper should be honest.' It is Japanese cultural expression. .Because Japan is an island nation, there are a lot of cases when it is confined to an island and there are many cases that cause trouble to others. Japan peoples always was careful, so I think that Japan custom have come to Korea. My father always kept these words in his heart as a lesson. So he wanted to hear the nickname ‘ Guarantee Check '. He said me that it has been a long time since I tried not to lose my credit to others. .Perhaps in 1950(Korean war), he ran on a US military truck to South Korea alone. It was the happiest time to live in Pyongyang for about 20 years with his mother , till escape from Pyongyang to South Korea. After that, after the 6.25 of Korean war everything became ashes and his property disappeared. . However, when my father came to South Korea for the refuge, he was born again as a merchant and began to revive in our family. In other words, the precious merchant spirit of our family begins to bloom flowers .Sometimes SKYMOM feels many times when there are the spirits of scholar and merchant in my body’ DNA. He combined a branch called a merchant on the foundation of the scholar. .Since then, he has lived all his life without regret as a merchant. I think it is because of the store experience which he learned after graduating from elementary school and the spirit of scholar. Of course, my father was born in the background of the spirit of scholar, so he would be fortunate of the outstanding ability... In broad terms, all these things come from to be the virtues of our ancestors. Even today, I think that all happy life which I spent my childhood comfortably, joyfully and happily, and receive university education with delight come from the virtues of my parents.. .It is the victory of my parents' persistent spirit of merchant and scholar. At this time, if my father did not come to Pyongyang and did not get a job, SKYMOM would be born probably as a child of a normal farmer and would live in North Korea until now . As such, my father’ strategy and judgments shine continuously . Next I have to tell you about my father's marriage story. . Chapter 7 Paragraph 3 : Romance of parents Parents are dead, but their romance always remains an echo for me (SKYMOM) It was a nagging and the instructions of the departed and a bell of love, which had to be heard frequently . This is the content. My grandmother, who lived in Pyongyang around 1940, made a marriage broker for her daughter-in-law. Finally, the marriage broker who knew my mother and the Pyongyang marriage broker were connected with each other Matchmaking story comes and goes, and finally parents are married by matchmaking. But when it looks inside, it has a amazed story. It is also the birthplace of the famous General Ulji Mundeok Unfortunately, it is not a free marriage in which men and women love each other at this time. It is a matchmaking marriage that matchmakers connect to each other.. In some cases, they did not know about each other's family each other before they married . My parents are also married without knowing each other, and they are married to old-fashioned marriages that see each other's faces on wedding day. One day when marriage ceremony ripens, my grandfather and my father go to my mother’s country to receive a marriage date at their home. The azalea and a golden-bell tree blooms on the mountains and the cherry blossoms at street in the Pyongyang city as the weather is springtime. The village where my mother lived is an orchard which Apples and pears were growing all the time. . .It was a step for father’s house of my mother to go outside. In ancient times, it is said that there is a certificate such as a marriage pledge written in Chinese to make a wedding. Of course, so the pledge was in Chinese, my father is going to bring up an expert who is good at Chinese writing. At that time, first my father met a father of my mother who will become my mother’s father . My father knew that my mother’s father is an intellectual who knows Chinese text well and writes well. .My father was surprised to know that my mother’s father is the owner of the village with a large orchard and is the eldest grandson by the eldest son of the scalar family. But my mother’s father was very embarrassed that he finds my father who has been poor and has never learned when he meets my father. This marriage was accomplished through matchmaker of my mother’s second mother. So when he knew wrong marriage, he got mad and beat her wife, who was second wife, with a broomstick. He was separated from by death about my first wife. "Stupid, you chose the stupid matchmaker and ruined marriage!" he was sighing. My mother’s second mother bled in her head much as he hit hardly. My mother's second mother said that "I will go to the Japanese police “ with complaint. It is a happening that can happen in the situation at that time. My grandfather also told and asked my mother ."It is spilled water anyway. You must marry and live well! " It’s reminiscences said to have regretted that my mother’s father says "I wish my father’s elder brother would become my son-in-law." I think my mother’s father gave a good score for my father’s elder brother rather than my father. So my mother says me that "it should never go with two persons and have to go out alone because it has a comparison about two , when it happen the marriage meeting” , It also tells stories like these legends. My mother’s mother was a well - known beautiful woman in the city.. One day mother of my mother went to shopping in downtown. However, it is said that a certain Japanese police man came to the house as the mother’s beauty of my mother.. So father of my mother says Japanese police man that "this woman is my wife. Do not come back again”. It also have a famous legend that a father of my mother kicked Japanese police man out of the house. I think that the mother of my mother was like a beautiful woman as much as North Korean have very beautiful girls.. I wish I could see you once in my dreams ... Thus, the wealthy daughter of the rich man has the newly-built unmatched honeymoon home in Pyongyang with the son of the poor man. New Street of Pyongyang was a glorious and awesome landscape.. But the honeymoon house that my mother had to live in was a shabby room of rent . So one day my mother went to the village of my mother’s father. Then she said him “dad, I can not live in a house in the poor room in Pyongyang. It's too poor to eat and live. It is difficult to live even though it is needlework for pay ” She had a complaint to him and then he said her that I will buy you a house and move away from your husband’s mother house and make a honeymoon home. A grandfather could not hide his sorry heart for his eldest daughter because of a marriage that does not fit for each other. My mother’s father promise that he will buy my mother a house in a way to compensate for the wrong marriage. However, my father’s mother said that “I can not consent branch family.. It is not about branch family while I am alive. After I'm dead, you can live in branch family.”. So you should go to move out a big house which have with three shops with my father’s mother at Pyongyang’s peak. However, due to the 6.25 war, my mother’s house was severely damaged by US military B-29 bombing. And my parents felt sad parting to leave Pyongyang house forever as a result of evacuation to south Korea My parents have been evacuated to South Korea for a while due to the Korean War. However, my parents could not imagine that there will be a truce line which can not go to Pyongyang.. Of course, my parents think that North Korea is not a place to live for merchants. My home is a Christian family that does not like the Communist Party. My parents was forced to evacuate to the south body only with all my house and property left. My parents could not think of it as a dream that could not go to Pyongyang forever. "The 38th line is the enemy .!" said mom. It occurs that reincarnation recalls my mother's face. “Good bye Daedong River Bye Moran peak. I can not forget you forever. I drank the water from the Taedong River, and grown up here . Then I looked up at Moran peak and was blooming with a flower youth. It's goodbye forever now. So long Daedong river. God bye Moran peak.” She said good bye when was crossing the frozen Daedong River at Korean war My parents were destined to end up not seeing the Daedong River and Moran peak of a lot sadness in their life time. She once told me this story. On my way of shopping to the down at Pyongyang, father said mother that . “Honey, when you go out wearing a bright Korean traditional clothes , all the others are staring at you, because you are so beautiful. So I want to you go out wearing shabby clothes. Then other peoples will not look at you because you are similar with me. " Mother always was proud of missing her beauty of young days. . So next time, I will sketch the days of Busan refugees. Chapter 7 section 4 Seoul's childhood landscape after the Korean war On Sunday, June 25, 1950, north Korea invades South Korea, causing Korean war. The Korean War is causing the two Koreas to burn and destroy almost all of them, resulting in the desolation of their land. The Korean War destroyed and burned almost all of the Korean peninsula. So Korea was sad to be destroyed in whole country. In the 1960s, the ruins of the aftermath of the war aftermath swept the Korean War. In the 1960s, the damage from the aftermath of the Korean War was beyond imagination. At that time, Korea was the ruin itself. So a foreigner who was a war correspondent during the 625 war used to criticize, 'Can a rose bloom from a pile of garbage!' Under the name of red unification, communists in North Korea waged war on the Korean peninsula. It was a riot of communist Koreans who had no historical consciousness. Park Heon-young and Kim Il-sung are host of the Korean War. They are war criminals in Korean history.. The Korean War of 625 was a painful and devastating war that killed millions of Korean people and foreign peoples. Foreigners include US soldiers and Chinese soldiers. I just hope that this Korean war will never happen again. When I was a child, I remember the days happily during Hyehwa elementary School. My house of child food was Korean traditional style House which is located behind Hyehwa Station in Seoul's castle town. It occurs dimly Korean traditional house which is located behind Hyehwa Station in Seoul's main gate, the narrow alley in the neighborhood, the old road that had been went to elementary School, Rotary fountain. blue back garden of small mountain , view of neighborhoods across the street, neighborhood Church Buildings and Crosses, Chime bells and shouts of children born after the Korean War. Every day, it used to take tests at my elementary School in the strongest feelings in the deepest memories that I have ever felt when I was young. Command of the teacher goes on with test. “Do not take your eyes off the test paper until the bell rings ding-dong. '’ Now, 60 years have passed, but the scary and cruel voice of the teacher at elementary School continues to hover in my ears. I will not take my eyes off it until one minute and one second even on the test paper of life, The test paper is now replaced by writing paper and dances on this. Even now, I don't understand why teachers had to take exams and grade them by handing them out every day. At that time, the teachers became at the sky and the level of gangsters carrying clubs. From the perspective of the child… Teacher’s words were the law, and the school was the military academy At that time elementary School was a terrible academy that couldn't find the other than obedience. At that time, the forceful atmosphere to enter a prestigious secondary school was the best order for the students of elementary school. Nevertheless, the days of the elementary school were very different from the secondary school. However, there was a little romantic space where young concentric flowers are essential in time of elementary school . It was allowed to read books of child’s story and biography of great man . It was also allowed to spend time through playing soccer with the children friends of neighborhood in a narrow alleyway As far as education is concerned, Korea's education situation is not much different then or now. From elementary school, suffering from entrance examination hell almost reached the Choking level from view of SKYMOM. The Korean test is sufficient to brainwash the human brain and body from elementary school to college. He was a baby boomer generation, so his school class had a morning class and afternoon class with two-part classes. In some cases, the memory of the three-part classes is new. There were so many young students that the classroom was not enough in his childhood. It is an era of population cliffs, so numbers of elementary school are decreasing in Seoul. He feels that many years have passed. As a child, SKYMOM was sickly. So he fells down open, caught a cold, and it also occurs tonsillitis and had a lot of heat. However, there are no exceptions to the daily test time. He had to keep a strict unwritten rule which he had to take the test in my elementary school when he was sick. The elementary school was a military academy for children. It is still not growing the trembling of the childhood front the test papers in his mind. A inner mind of child who can't let go is still crouched alive in his deep mind. It is always written in the life record written by elementary teachers. 'As a introspective child ’ When I was young, I thought that elementary teachers would write as same to anyone. It's been a long time until I know what the word means. Indeed, many hours passed by before you realize it. An introverted, unfamiliar, shy child is only from within and has not grown strong. It's bleak, and it's embedded in the inner cave as a rebellious child. Others say that the body grows and the heart grows. Why can't an inner child of SKYMOM who crouch from his heart grow up? As a child, the elementary school was a military training center for young children. The teacher's teachings are strict training in the elementary school. Once I was just getting into elementary School. I was so scared and shy that I couldn't go to the bathroom in the class . So I couldn't stand to take a dump in class so had to shit in class.. The children next to me said, 'Hey, it smells shit here. ” The teacher didn't even come near his seat. SKYMOM went home, dropping a bunch of shit. He told his mother who she wore Korean traditional clothing and was going out. So she is angry. "Why didn't you tell your teacher you'd go to the bathroom?" she scolded SKYMOM. 'If I had the courage, I would go to the bathroom ... ’ The inner child develops rebellion again. This landscape is hidden in it. When he was in the 4th grade, he was coming home on the autumn day. After school he went to art school. The art teacher said to young me "today, draw General Yi Sun-shin on the drawing paper. This is because General Yi Sun-sin is a great hero of Koreans. At that time and now, he didn't have the ability to make sketches, and his art teacher demanded him a difficult picture. He was looking at the Western statues with reluctantly and blank mind. At that time the kind art teacher approached him and picked up a yellow colored pencil kindly and created General Yi Sun-sin at the level of Picasso. Until a while ago, nothing was alive in white paper. Admiral Yi Sun-Shin is alive by his hands with the magic of his teacher, and the lively picture is unfolded like magic. The next coloring is to eat bread. It is very easy for SKYMOM. It's enough to fill painting just in your favorite pretty colors, that is, red, yellow, and blue on the drawing paper However, the romantic life that he did not want to attend art academy ended soon. Strict father knew SKYMOM’s mind who is not interested in drawing .. SKYMOM’s father censored the drawing paper. There were many paintings that escaped from the art academy, fluttering in the drawing paper, The conclusion is obvious. “Stop going to art academy right now” His father’s strict command ordered to his mind. Even now, he visits the art museum to appreciate the paintings as a child,. It was an art class that I didn't like drawing in my childhood, but now I'm a friendly friend. It was an art class that he didn't like drawing in my childhood, but now painting becomes a friendly friend for him. The mind, the aptitude, and the taste change with time. like all things. Years flow like a river. The childhood’s devil is now turned into a companion at old age. In childhood, on the other hand, I always heard this admonition from my parents who went to heaven. 2020.7.3 금 2020.6.20부터 13만에 다시 써본다 가정예배드리자고한다 또거실로 나간다 집중못하고 아수비다…. Here's a travel sketches of Busan( Korean Port city) that SKYMOM wrote in elementary school. It writes down as it is , what he wrote at that time. It is a travel diary in a literary book created by the writing teacher's homework during the first year of junior high school writing. This travel diary was recorded the literary book created by teacher's homework during the first year of junior high school writing. [ ‘In Pusan’ It was in the fifth grade of elementary school on 1968 .. I went to Pusan and played with my older brother and sisters. It's the day I've been waiting for and waiting for. It was a sunny morning on August 3, 1968. I was excited for breakfast and prepared to go picnic. It could not represent any word as wonderful joy. After greeting my parents, I went to Seoul Station and bought a ticket and got on the train. After waiting for about 20 minutes, the train started moving slowly. Looking at the window, a electronic pole that soared high in the sky stood back to back .. After about 10 minutes, I could see the farmland. I could see my endless farmland at a glance, and it seemed to please my heart even more. Time has passed. I was in the train about 3 hours, so the refreshing mind disappeared and I even fell a boring mind. My train passed the cave, crossed the river, and arrived in Pusan city. As we got off the train and passed through Pusan Station, our father's friend came out to meet us. He took us to his home. The day was so tiring that I went straight into the bed. The next morning we went to Songdo beach in Pusan city. However, Songdo beach was dirty so I do not want to swim. But I can't. If it comes for a swimming, I must get into swimming in sea.. Swimming was not fun for me. When I got home, I feel tired continuously . The next day I went to Haeundae beach and played with my father's friend's family. But it suddenly began to rain while playing and swimming,. I came back house inevitably.. The next day I went to Dadepo beach and played with swimming . Dadepo beach was not as clean as Haeundae beach . However, at low tide, it was surprising that if you go out of 50-60m, there is a place where there is no water in some places, and even a place where there is water does not reach your knees. However, there is no water anywhere in 50-60yard at low tide. It was surprising that place where the sea water is located does not even cover the knee. the place where the water was, not even the knees. The next day I went to Taejongdae famous tourist resort at Pusan. I was scared to go on the cliff by bus. In Taejongdae tourist resort, I just played without swimming. . The rolling waves . The windless horizon. Looking at this beautiful scenery, I also wanted to live quietly in this place. The next day was Sunday. We went to the Northeastern Church with Lim of my father’s friend. The Northeastern Church stood magnificently next to Ungam Park. It seemed bigger than the church I attended. In the evening, we took a picture at Ungam Park and watched it. The next day was the last day to play in Pusan. However, I did not go to Haeundae beach because of diarrhea. I was bored and nervous when I was lying at home. The next day we went to Pusan Station after packing the suitcase. I thought about having fun playing at Pusan in trains, so I just wanted to play more at Pusan. ”] SKYMOM’s young heart is melting well at the book of travel to Pusan during his elementary school . At that time, Pusan city was the most distant region for SKYMOM, and it was the birthplace of Bethlehem for SKYMOM. As SKYMOM is standing in the middle of age, it is the beginning of book of travel filled young mind which is full of regret. 2021-11-26 (금) 20:28 7:6 Middle school days. The middle school days, which started in the early 1970s, were still the most intensive academic hours in school days. After graduating on elementary school from my eldest brother who fled from Pyongyang city in north Korea, I learned from winter vacation about the English ABC abc that year was a curious mass. The lowercase a was like a chick. b is a soap bubble stick . c is a fan-like shape. Lowercase letters is the essence of foreign culture. However, it didn't even know that English would perplex the hearts and souls of Koreans in my whole life. In one of the study references, this told the proverb,'English laughs in at first but cry out at last'. But English, which was so curious and fun, was just only a proverb which is meant the fire across the river. In the heart of that little boy... English is an international language... The Korea is a peninsula country, so there are many economic problems without going into the world. Culturally, it was a civilization whose cultural thirst was so severe that it was inevitable to be thirsty for foreign cultures. Culturally, cultural thirst becomes serious in Korea. Also, Koreans are thirsty for foreign cultures. Korea has had a structure where it has no choice but to love the US and overseas in a geopolitical and historically secure manner. So, even Koreans must study English desperately. At that time or now... Fortunately, SKYMOM's curiosity and interest in English pierced the sky and covered the earth. From a very young age, I was interested in children's books and biography, novels . So, it may be a natural step to have a sincere interest in the language of another country. This is because SKYMOM’s generation is the generation who learned Chinese characters since childhood. This is because Heaven is the generation where the mother's generation has learned Chinese characters since childhood. In particular, Chinese characters, which I have been learning since elementary school, have become accustomed to Chinese culture. Furthermore, it developed a deep affection for Chinese poetry. Still, middle school days were still romantic days that remained impressive to SKYMOM. Basically, the memories of middle school days were the times when I had to study English and math only every time I sit. In other words, I had to study to go to a prestigious high school. But it turned out that I had an obsession that I had to study English and math as long as I sat down. It must be because it was a shadow that followed like a ghost. The teachers always told me that the key to success in the entrance exam of prestigious universities is in English and math. School times were allocated mainly for English math lectures. This is because it was the reality at the time that extracurricular classes and private academy classes were only taught mainly in English and math. If it thinks about this fact now, it's just an absurd educational reality. However, it is possible that thanks to that, English proficiency has improved and mathematical thinking has improved. However, it was not enough in terms of whole-person education or personality education. And other subjects had to be neglected in consideration of it. It is another ill which this was also an undeniable fact. In particular, I did not to study science subjects , which is most closely connected into modern life after coming home . So it became more and more ignorant of science. So, it remains regrets. So, even now, background knowledge on scientific knowledge is insufficient. As a result, I can hardly find an answer to the questions that ask in my daily life, so I am just frustrated. Absence of scientific thinking puts everyday life away from science Let's take an example. Even now, SKYMOM only looks at the phenomenon that the towels soaked in water evaporate dry. The phenomenon is magically magical. I don't understand why water vapor evaporates. Many questions arising in real life must be understood as scientific knowledge. However, scientific knowledge on background cannot be accumulated. So I feel frustrated and vague. It is not easy to read astronomy books. Liberal arts books about astronomy require a basic knowledge of physics to understand. No matter how interested you are in astronomy, you cannot understand the stories that astronomers tell the general public. Even if you are interested in astronomy, you cannot understand the stories that astronomers tell the general public if you are without a background in physics. This is because it is an abnormal disability education that focuses only on English and mathematics education. SKYMOM's middle school was an middle school to operate by a small art university in Seoul at Korea. At the main entrance of the school was a statue of Rodin called "The Thinking Rodin." Korean middle schools go to three years. There was also the luxury of enjoying the luck of meeting the statue "Rodin's Thinker" for three years. Even now, the statue of “Thinking Rodin,” as if a man with a muscular body sits naked and is sitting on a chair and thinking deeply, pops up. The statue is a man with a muscular body sitting naked on a chair and pondering deeply. Even now, the statue of “Thinking Rodin” pops up in my head. Humans are thinking animals. Through thought, mankind escaped the solar system as well as the moon and reached our Milky Way. Leaving our galaxy, mankind spread their thoughts to other galaxies, and continued their thoughts into parallel and multiple universe spaces. My parter sitting next by me ask to me. “What is that statue thinking about now?” “I don’t know.” "That Rodin sculpture is thinking, ‘Where are my panties now?’ " No. ‘Am I alive or am I dead?’ I joked to my parter. There are no animals on this planet that have as many thoughts as humans. However, classes at secondary schools in Korea are entrance examination education and infusion training . So, the student who asks a question had to receive exclusion and jealousy from the students around him. If you ask a question, you're a stranger and a traitor. The entrance exam was approaching front us, and then asking questions was only a waste of time. It was the truth to study only what was put on the exam. In other words, you don't have to ask the weird questions that don't appear on the exam. Because it is uselessly. It was such an atmosphere, and they were students of that era. To take an extreme example. “When is the birthday of Admiral Yi Sun-sin?” Quiz-style questions like these appear on the exam. 'What is the modern meaning of Japanese invasion of Korea in 1592? Questions that require narrative answers are not presented. There cannot be made in questions that can vary depending on the perspective of the person with any number of answers . So, it doesn't appear on the exam. So, it is advantageous for students who memorize in a short answer. It is disadvantageous for students who ask strange and useless questions. It is because it is one law in Korea's educational situation. Even today, there are the ills of the entrance examination-oriented education and infusion-style education in the ills of Korean education. Furthermore, Korean culture has not evolved and developed into various cultures. The reason for this is also the entrance exam-oriented education and education of answer one of four questions the multiple-choice education. Korean students are studying for entrance exams all night long. So Korean students go to college, and get a doctorate, and become a professor. However, no good scholar who rides the Nobel Prize comes out. It is a leap of logic, but the reason is because of education focused on entrance exams. Curiosity comes from questions. You can learn, understand, and discuss through questions. However, since there are no questions in Korea, there is no curiosity and no creativity. It's so sad. It is also important to have debate education in which questions, discussions, and understandings are made. However, because of the entrance examination, debate education is neglected in Korea . Now, it is necessary to go along with the infusion-type entrance examination education and the discussion-type education. It is truly a regrettable educational reality. It must be improved urgently. Education is a far-sighted national policy. In addition, for SKYMOM , going to middle school meant an eternal separation between friends in the neighborhood. Because I didn't have time to play in the neighborhood with my local friends anymore. Until elementary school, there was a romance where I could enjoy a leisurely time playing football in the neighborhood. However, after attending middle school, it was an atmosphere and structure in which middle school students only had to study for entrance exams, so after school, they only had to go to tutoring or a private school to continue studying. To go to elementary school, it follows the narrow side street of Seoul National University. After that, it was a course to go to elementary school through Hyehwa-dong Fountain Rotary. Even now, the road still remains intact with the romance of his youth in the box of memories . I can't forever forget that way to school. Now, it has become a busy street on the back road of Daehak-ro( youth road) at Hyehwa Station, but everything is disappearing... I go back to my writing class in middle school. “What is philosophy? ‘ The teacher gives the answer in a conditional reflex. “Philosophy is the study to become the foundation of all studies” “Then, can I do all studies well if I practice philosophy? Is philosophy something we need in our lives? Why don't we learn philosophy then? “ I wanted to keep asking these questions to my writing teacher. But it was a waste of time and insane to ask for something that didn't appear on the test. My class mate was a Beatles enthusiast. Back then, I didn't even know who the Beatles were. And it was a time when I didn't even know what a pop song was. One day, the friend brought me a picture of the Beatles and a sheet music, and showed me, “This picture is the Beatles. “This song is ‘yesterday ’and ‘let it be ’ . It is very fun. You listen too.” “Yes, I’ll listen too sometime.” However, it was a long time after hearing the Beatles. SKYMOM had no afford and romance due to the entrance examination as much as I was concerned about singing. Perhaps thanks to that, middle school grades were always at the top. Sometimes, there were moments of splendid achievements of being first in class. At that time, mostly male teachers were in charge. In my class, the homeroom teacher was very ill, so the female teacher was in charge of it. The teacher gave the students homework to write a diary every day. It remains a perplexing memory of having to keep a diary all the time. At that time, it was a boring diary time. But now, it turns into a scene of joyful memories for the elderly with gray hair. Teams that have won at sports never forget the confidence of winning in whole life. I've heard this story at first glance. Likewise, for SKYMOM, the memory of first-class grades became the energy and driving force to overcome difficulties. 'If I work hard, I will never get behind or get tired and I can do well like others.‘ It is remained a symbol of confidence. The most memorable time was also the hardest science time. Science used to sound like a story of a faraway country. Korean language, history, and commerce subjects were so sweet storytelling time. Nevertheless, one day SKYMOM come to the memory of having a perfect score on a science test. Rather than studying hard, I was lucky, so I got 100 points for taking it well. Because the examination are multiple choice problems. It can choose one correct answer from four questions. When I graduated from school and came to society, I sometimes thought,'There is no right answer in life'. There may be a model answer. At that time, it was common sense and hope for everyone to go to a prestigious middle and high school, go to a prestigious university, get a job at a large company, become an executive, or become a public servant . And then after retiring, he spends the rest of his life comfortably. Of course, if someone has excellent intellectual talent, he can go to medical school and become a doctor Or it was a common idea to go to law school and become a judge. If it continue to ask questions, it will be rebelled against this conventional wisdom. For example, at school, they were asked to memorize the contents of the subject unconditionally because they were on the exam. Then teachers admonished that going to a prestigious secondary school and a prestigious university is the way to be happy and rich. And when I went to church on Sunday, church urged me to believe it unconditionally. Only then it taught that it can go to heaven by faith. It said that when it goes to hell, it lives in an eternal fire. At home, my parents used to teach me to obey. Only then they said that I can become a good son. My parents taught me that boy should be gentle and should not make naughty. However, SKYMOM was naturally free and liked to run wildly on the throne. However, Heavenly Mother is naturally free-spirited and loved to play happily. So I thought that my DNA was born with a personality and a temperament that could not be obeyed by all teachings. There are also mutations. In my childhood and school days, consisting of school, church, and home, my language completely disappeared. SKYMOM was born as a robot man whose personality was stuffed by being engrossed in the cultural structure of that time. As if it was born again as a fighting robot when it go to the army... Looking back, I suppose if SKYMOM started growing up as a problem child as an inner rebel. Because my parents hated the Communist Party of North Korea, they had to evacuate from Pyongyang at north Korea to South Korea. However, because they grew up drinking water from the Daedong River in Pyongyang, the hereditary and rebellious blood was flowing in their body. This is because the original land of Pyongyang is historically a land where rebellion and military spirit flow. The spirit of rebellion seems to be connected paradoxically with the spirit of moderation of our people . There is a theory that the Korean people have built our country around Pyongyang based on the Hongik human spirit by Tan-gun, the founding father of the Korean nation. Of course, no one knows where the capital of Gojoseon of Korean first kingdom had been built . Perhaps that is why the spirit of our people is also the spirit of harmony among men . The spirit of harmony among menmeans “to be gentle and reconciled” in the dictionary. In other words, it means getting along well with each other. Since ancient times, our nation has thought the best virtue not to fight and to live in harmony. It develops and becomes the spirit of loyalty and to be dutiful to our parents. SKYMOM hopes that this spirit will spread to the world. However, things have two sides. When sunlight shines, the shade is thick. Both are right. Both are wrong. It is the wisdom of our ancestors to like both of these spirits. That means achieving balance. It is a spirit that flows down in the spirit of our people. But the reality wasn't exactly that. Only correct answers must be correct. It only have to know the correct answer. The social structure of entrance exams, where we have to live only with correct answers, made our students as short-answer humans. Absurdly... At that time, Korean peoples was recognized that everyone had to study well, and then had to became large corporations’ employes or public servants. In addition, a culture of prejudice, jealousy, and ridicule appears among those who go on deviant paths. Koreans sent prejudice, jealousy, and ridicule to those who went other ways. A truly unfortunate reality flows. I look forward to seeing more start-up companies like Israel and the United States America in Korea. Now then. Again. Write down the contents of the writings I made during the writing class in the 1st of middle school. It is transferred as it was written at that time. Fallen leaves [private writings] SKY middle school 1st grade 10 class no. 48 written by SKYMOM preface Great book has the truth . But this book I've made is neither great nor fun. It wasn't once or twice that I wanted to tear the paper apart if I used to write the wrong font while making this book. Therefore, there may be places in this book that are somewhat wrong and out of context. This book is the lamp of my heart. Since it is shining on my heart, I had to write this book with great care. For the first time in my life, I sincerely hope that this book I have made will serve as a true value. Author. order 1. A white cloud and a white heart.........3 2. In Busan...................................... .....4 3. Cosmos............................................... ....9 4. My Diary .............................................10 5. Poetry , Title: white heart in white cloud. Windless Lying on green grass I look at the sky like spring beautiful white cloud of a bit. More over there than here More beautiful Blossom cloud In my white heart When the white clouds come down It will become a more beautiful and clean mind! Poetry. Title : Cosmos Autumn wind blows breezy. Bloom alone on the hill Anyone don't welcome a bunch of cosmos. Here and there Just a bunch of grass Ah! Cosmos is lonely, so how do you get along? I climb the hill Be friends Whispering to each other I want to relieve the loneliness of Cosmos! Diary: My Diary September 17 , 1970. Now it’s a very quiet time when I can’t hear a single breath I write a few letters in my journal. It rained so much this morning that I didn't want to go to school. A test which a few days left. I should be doing well on this month's exam. I worry again and again, but I hesitate like this again today. Today I studied Korean subject. From what I thought, I wanted to study whole chapter in range, but I could only go to Lesson 3. I need to study to Lesson 2 as soon as possible . exactly...... September 18, 1970 There is something I did wrong today. In other words, I wrote down to my teacher the child, Kim Chul-soo, who was talking louder in class at the time at the end of one day's class. In other words, I told on my teacher. I wrote it in a hurry, but when I thought about it, I made it wrong. From the next day, I will not make this mistake. I studied Korean again today, but I couldn't do it completely. I put it off until tomorrow. I want to promise to finish the Korean language tomorrow. It will come to me good luck hopefully as I go step by step to take this month's exam well... September 22, 1970 Today is a test day. I studied for today. But I am not confident. When I went to school, the students’ seats changed, but my seat did not. I think I did well on the exam today. In particular, I couldn't study chisel in the technical subject, but the examination didn't set a problem with chisel. I felt so good. I have to express my gratitude to God. How much did my test score come out? I'm just hoping desperately that test score will come out well... September 24, 1970 My grades took first place. My grades came out well. I am not happy even though it is a moment to rejoice. But I have to thank God. book report: After reading Napoleon's autobiography... I chose Napoleon because Napaleon is one of the world's top three heroes.( Napoleon, Siser, Genghis Khan) Napoleon was also ambitious to put the whole world into his hands. Like Napoleon, I want to make my name known all over the world. I don't want to be a hero. Napoleon was born on the island of Colsica (An island in the mediterranean sea) . His mother was a very gentle person, but his father was a blunt and terrifying person. Napoleon grew up in the arms of his parents. Napoleon became a boy and went to the juvenile academy. At that time, the academy was a place where nobles and royalty attended. Therefore, because Napoleon was a commoner, so he received a lot of ridicule from others. However, Napoleon took this reference book as his friend and was addicted to the book. However, Napoleon endured this. However, Napoleon held up with this. He made the book his friend and was addicted to the book. I also have something to learn from here. That is reading. I don't read a lot of books. I think I should read it within my mind. In an accident, Napoleon leaves Colsica island and go for France. Going to France, Napoleon becomes admiral through hard work. Napoleon becomes admiral and marries a woman. The wife of Napoleon was an Austrian princess, with a lot of vanity and extravagance. Napoleon occupies Europe ahead of his dream which is meant conquest of the world. Napoleon crosses the Alps mount which no one can cross, and advance to Italy when conquering Italy,. At that time, Napoleon said,'The word of impossible is not found in the French dictionary.‘ How magnificent and brave he was! I also need to develop my skills to the point where I can say something like this. Napoleon won great victories wherever he went, but he did not occupy as much as Britain. Years passed. It is only written here. Unfortunately... I look at the first anthology of my middle school days when it was after 40 years at my 60th birthday. It is the luxurious retrospect of life. And it's a short break from the limitless competition society. Life is like a flowing river that flows so fleetingly, like a floating cloud. This body is growing old in a natural way. Among the incidents in middle school, the most memorable incidents can be summarized into three. The first was failing the English high school entrance exam. It was a time when I had to go to private tutoring or private academy right away after school was over and I went home. At that time, unlike now, there were not many students who tutored after school, and there were not many local private academies. However, Sky Mom was dominated by the obsession that I had to go to a prestigious high school. The school atmosphere was an atmosphere that insisted on going to a prestigious high school. My goal was to only go to a prestigious middle school just like when I was at Elementary School. Looking back now, looking back, it was an absurd entrance exam education. At that time, the school atmosphere had to be brainwashed in the situation and its structure. Man is a product of time and space. Because it was typical of a model student to focus on studying like a robot. It was a luxury to ask why I had to study hard for the entrance exam of high school. It was a heretic and was a shortcut to becoming a loser. Because it was just the going astray from education. Still, studying in middle school was not difficult because I had a clear goal of going to a prestigious high school. Also, the grades were also at the top, so it was a kind of pleasure and self-confidence to receive a good report card from the homeroom teacher. Full self-esteem always comes from confidence in studying things. It was just a series of tensions that I had to study until late night by hanging a blanket on the wall to hide the mater room’s light after private tutoring . The second was the failure of the entrance exam for a prestigious high school that I never forget forever. SKYMOM had an absurd pride that I could pass the entrance exam for a prestigious high school. But the reality is cruel. It was never easy to enter the prestigious high school through a high competition rate, but SKYMOM expected that it would pass very easily. However, on the day the successful applicants were announced, the poster board attached to the stone wall of a prestigious high school did not even have SKYMOM’ name and exam number written on it. The sky is falling down. The ground trembles and the mind is full of confusion. It was a thrilling time when I experienced by myself the meaning of world for the first time in my life. The third impressive incident was my study style of English. Even now, sentences from the English textbook book of 'Tom and Judy' come to mind. When studying English, it is common to interpret English textbooks and memorize English words. However, my English study method was to interpret all the textbook contents in Hindi in my notebook and then translate them back into English. However, my English study method interprets all contents of English textbook by Korean in my notebook. After that, it was a study of translating into English again by myself. In other words, it was a study pattern of rewriting the contents of Korean sentences that I interpreted into English . Studying English by rewriting English has presented to learn the entire structure of English sentences. And it allowed me to memorize or understand all of the English contents. Of course, as an added bonus, the English test scores were relatively good. Only the weakness was that it took a lot of time. However, studying English, which took a lot of time, cultivated my writing ability to translate all my novels into English.