. Chapter 7-1: story of the house of the SKYMOM
I
meet a friend of my life and try to solve my inmost thoughts
by telling
the story that I experienced during life
time.
"My
house was Pyongyang city of North Korea.
It is a town that boasts a magnificent view of Manganbong Mountain and pavilion.
Often,
Korean proverb says, 'If you do not like
it, you do not appreciate Pyongyang'.
It
is often said that Korean proverb says ' I will not go to Pyongyang If I do not
like Pyongyang governor.’
Paradoxically, everyone wants to become Pyongyang governor.
Because
Pyongyang is a beautiful place where the Daedong river flows.
Everyone
wants to see.
In
Pyongyang, a woman is beautiful.
But
it is also the land of an
uncompromising attitude of mind.
Historically,
Pyongyang was land of the Gojoseon
dynasty
later it was also the
capital of Goguryeo dynasty.
It
is also famous for being the second capital city during the Goryeo dynasty and Joseon
dynasty period.
Now
the problem is that the direction of uncompromising
attitude of mind is toward the USA. ...
Anyway
Pyongyang is a land of historical
interest that anyone want to visit Pyongyang.
It
is also the land where the Taedong River flow through Korean sad feelings .
My
dad father used to say that It is the
first house of Moran-bang tram station and this place is 3000 square feet in crossroads house
My father left me a will to visit my parents’ house in Pyongyang before my father passed
away.
I
also want to go to Pyongyang a lifetime.
I
do not know if I will be able to go to
Pyongyang because time is so strange.
If
I can not go to Pyongyang , I will leave with my only daughter a will to go to
Pyongyang.
Of
course, I keep to tell stories with my
nephew.
I think it might be a duty, not even my
mission which the history of my family deliver
to their children frankly .
It
may also be a logical leap, but it can be seen that knowing the suffering and
frustration of the ancestors can prevent them from suffering again like the
Jews,
It
is getting longer.”
“. Yeah, it would be fun.
Talk
me slowly and funny from the root of the family history.
Tell
me easily , relaxed, , with fun, and
with meaningful lessons rather than
rushing,...
Sky
Mom You can do well.
Life
I'm expecting you
Just
say it.
Naturally"
"My
family was evacuated from the Pyongyang
to South Korea.
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The Korean War is a war in which the North Korean People's Army tanks was driven
to the South Korea. During the war, my parents had been evacuated with the narrow escape from death from Pyongyang of North Korea to
Pusan city of South Korea .
I'll
start with the story.
In
order to do that, I have to start from the story of our grandparents in our
family. ... Listen, this story is from the my mother’s
story.
It's a story created by mosaicking with sculptural
information. This story is meant sewing
patch work.
I
will collect some pieces of information and synthesize a little bit of
imagination to solve the story.
Because
my grandmother and grandfather both died in Pyongyang.
So
I have never seen them in my life.
It
just had a portrait of my father and father’s elder brother and grandmother in a
living room..
So
I used to go out to meet my grandmother by spreading the imaginary wings.
My
grandfather is man of the legend.
My father grew up without knowing his face.
. My father lived a painful
life and died..
Everyone
at that time had to go through life of fetter like this ...
Originally,
our home country is not Pyongyang at North Korea...
It's a Soungchun county to the northeast of Pyongyang.
The
grandfather of my family is also saying that he was a policeman.
Or
it is said that he was a wholesaler who supplied food ingredients to
restaurants.
I
do not know whose story is right.
Or maybe they're both wrong or right.
. But my grandfather was a
terrible
policeman who the story
can be said to be a
pro-Japanese group.
It may be a shameful story of the
house.
But it does not make the history of the house
beautify and do not distort too.
. It is the child's responsibility to convey
and describe without increase and decrease.
It
is the spirit of human nature.
"These
days, autobiographies and memoirs turn pro-Japanese group into independent troops against Japan..
It's fashionable to make a memoir by beautifying pro-Japanese group as a patriot.
It
puts on makeup of the image and make pro-Japanese group beautification to excellent person often.
It
says a lie and makes a mythological figure like a great man in this time. "
"One
of the stories I heard growing up was that my grandmother was very much a
heroine.
The
story of being strong-willed is coming
down.
It
is said that my grandmother was
enthusiastic.
She
also liked shamanism and I heard that she kept her idols in her house.
In
the old days, everyone wanted to get rid of the sundry evil spirits and get a wealth and prosperity
It
is still like with the almighty dollar principle
of
modern people .
It's
the same with humans.
Also,
one of the secret facts was that grandfather
married
my grandmother to my second wife.
The
grandmother gave birth to five children from her ex-husband.
.. But
I wonder how her could got married again
with my grandfather.
It may have been common
sense for the customs and emotions at
that time,
Why
my grandfather with former wife
and children want to marry with my
grandmother who has with former husband and children?
The
big brother who came down from Pyongyang
of North Korea told me that he was
married my grandmother because he was delivering food stuff to her who managed a
restaurant as a wholesaler.
Because
they knew each other in terms of trade
they
became friendly.
So
my grandmother gave birth 7children totally.
But Could
they ever marry with on their selves freely?
At
that time, everybody gave birth to about 10 children generally..
Of
course, many of them died for not exceeding one year.
I
think that it could not have even contraceptive, and of natural delivery
usually .
This generation
which it is hard to raise a baby like now is very different with old generation
as much as the sky and the land are different .”
" The emotions and circumstances in the
19th century when your grandmother lived, will be different with this time very
much. "
"Everything
changes.
Today
is different and tomorrow is another life.
It seems to me that it is the essence and core
of life to find my inner self in the flowing life.
But
It have a legend which the funny fact
is that my grandmother's father was a wealthy and high and prominent office
It
means that my grandmother was a rich daughter.
. It's a
mystery why a rich daughter has twice
wedding as mistress.
My
father was grown up without a
grandfather.
The
story of growing up in a widow 's house also comes down in our family.
My
grandfather, my father and my father’s elder brother have been living in
Pyongyang poorly . "
"In the old days, it was customary for
everybody to have a second wife or mistress at that time."
"Yes, it was customary to have mistress.
But
the problem is that my grandmother's father has been treating my grandfather as
a good for nothing.
The
story is coming down. "
"Why did not your grandmother's father like
your grandfather ?"
"I
do not know whether my grandfather was
poor or bad man or Japan policeman.
Perhaps
my grandmother's father dislike that my grandmother was married as my grandfather's mistress.
I
thought my grandmother’s father felt
badly in his mood, or his honor has disappeared.
Or
because the emotions of the time had been thought very badly about this fact at his daughter has
wedding twice.
I
do not even understand why the daughter of rich man was married
poor grandfather.
But
my grandmother loved my elder father and
my father terribly, and I heard that she lived But my grandmother loved my
great father and father terribly, and I heard that she lived with his two sons
until she died in Pyongyang. "
"Have
not you ever seen Grandma?"
"Yes, I have never seen my grandmother,
but I could only see her through the portrait which grandmother and elder
father and father was drawn.”
“Didn’t you
know the concept of my grandparents and relatives because I have no them ?’
"I
grew up without knowing about the concept
of my relatives.
I knew
that my family’ relationship is thin after
I got married .
. When I was
a kid, of course it was a routine thing.
Especially
my elder father went to elementary school in Pyongyang.
He always got good grades when he went to school.
He had a
lot of praise and affection from my grandmother.
I
grew up listening to the story from my mother.
But
unfortunately, my father did not go to school.
He
was so poor that his family can not
support to go to school because he is second son in his family.
My
mother said me this story sorrowfully.
It's a huge inconceivable event
for now.
But
at the time, it was common living condition
in life .
Rather,
it was a luxury going to school .
It
was a time to think of going to school.
It
was a tearful era of the 1920s ...
My
mother used to say to me that my cousin studied well in studying because my
cousin resemble like a elder father. "
"There
may be a lot of secret stories in
Pyongyang. "
"I
will also tell you about story of the secret history in my family.
My
heart is hurried and are ashamed.
Must
I announce the story of my family to the world?
It
is kind of embarrassing, and unfamiliar for me now.
I
just talked to each other but I did not think that I would tell you life .
Now
that I have reserved it, I have shaped it as a novel.
Someday
I wanted to tell to you about my life journey.
So
I pop out of the world, and tell to more people about my story
It
would be nice to find a creative way if we could reduce the number of trial and
error when we encountered in our life path filled with frustration and
suffering .
This
is the cause to tell you.”
"Thanks
for telling me honestly “
“It
is a human fate that everyone can carry their own burdens and walk the path of
life.
It
just want to be more intelligent and smart in life.
. To do
that, it have been playing around and
reading a lot of books since it was a child .
It
have to think a lot about things around and write a lot about yourself. "
"Yes,
life, you are a wise man and a terminator.
Let me know a lot of your wisdom, knowledge
and meaning of life ... "
I
am thrilled to be able to tell the history of my family and me .
It's
a story that nobody cares about.
It's
also a family history that it not proud of.
I
was just trying to pass it but keep just in the heart deeply .
Unexpectedly
I am fighting alone and I am glad that you are interested in my story.
It
seems to meet the millionaire army.
The
power springs up by itself.
It
was probably 10 or 20 years ago.
I
asked to my olderhe half brother about the history of our family who was working in Dongdaemun market in
Jongno at Seoul in Korea.
Because
I wondered about the history of
our family
He
was very embarrassed.
The
father knew the case.
I
remember long time that my father was
scolded me to investigate my father's bad career of family.
It's already been decades ago, and now I'm
stamped on my brain ...
Sad
self-portrait ..
Of
course, I thought that my father and his great father were the children of the
afterlife, and that the half-brother was a child, so I did not have such a
problem.
Of
course, because my father and my elder father are the children of my
grandfather’s second wife, and my elder half brother is a grandson my
grandfather’s first wife.
. So I
thought that it had a problem.
I
know it's too old to have family relations ... "
Historically,
there was a system of status in the Joseon Dynasty (A.D 1392-1910).
My
father and elder half-brother did not tell me because the emotions of Joseon Dynasty
(A.D 1392-1910) had the distinction
against the child by a concubine.
Humans
have a protective instinct that they do not want to talk about pain and
suffering that they have felt from their childhood.
“I
wonder how she looks and hope to meet her.
What
kind of my grandmother? ...
She
would have loved her grandchildren me very much ...
Why
my grandmother loved the first son just and
dislike the second son? "
I
have sketched grandma and grandfather about this outline.
Next
time, I will sketch the story of my father, my grandfather, and my mother's
Pyongyang marriage.
