2017년 10월 31일 화요일

KOREA, Introduction of Korean culture ,Korean novel,, What is life? The meaning of life, the essence of life, life book, Life and death, sky novel, SKYMOM frustration, wandering , pain, life summery, summation of thought, storytelling of my family.

. Chapter 7-1: story of the house of the SKYMOM


I meet a friend of my life and try to solve my inmost thoughts
by telling  the story that I experienced during life time.
"My house was  Pyongyang city of North Korea. It is a town that boasts a magnificent view of Manganbong Mountain and  pavilion.
Often, Korean  proverb says, 'If you do not like it, you do not appreciate Pyongyang'.
It is often said that Korean proverb says ' I will not go to Pyongyang If I do not like Pyongyang governor.’
 Paradoxically, everyone wants to become  Pyongyang governor.
Because Pyongyang is a beautiful place where the Daedong river flows.
Everyone wants to see.
In Pyongyang, a woman is beautiful.
But it is also the land of an uncompromising attitude of mind.

Historically, Pyongyang was land of  the Gojoseon dynasty
 later it was also the capital of Goguryeo dynasty.
It is also famous for being the second capital city during the Goryeo dynasty and  Joseon  dynasty period.
And it was  also the place where 단어장 저장 완료 an uncompromising attitude of mind had been resisted against China.
Now the problem is that the direction of uncompromising attitude of mind is toward the USA. ...

Anyway  Pyongyang is a land of historical interest that anyone want to visit Pyongyang.
It is also the land where the Taedong River flow through Korean sad feelings  .
My dad  father used to say that It is the first house of Moran-bang tram station and this place is 3000 square feet  in  crossroads house
 My father  left me a will to visit my parents’  house in Pyongyang before my father passed away.
I also want to go to Pyongyang a lifetime.
I do not know if I will be able to  go to Pyongyang  because time is so strange.
If I can not go to Pyongyang , I will leave  with my only daughter a will to go to Pyongyang.
Of course, I keep to tell  stories with my nephew.
 I think it might be a duty, not even my mission which the history of my family  deliver to their children frankly  .
It may also be a logical leap, but it can be seen that knowing the suffering and frustration of the ancestors can prevent them from suffering again like the Jews,
It is getting longer.”
“. Yeah, it would be fun.
Talk me slowly and funny from the root of the family  history.
Tell me easily , relaxed, , with  fun, and with meaningful lessons  rather than rushing,...
Sky Mom You can do well.
Life I'm expecting you
Just say it.
Naturally"
"My family was evacuated from the Pyongyang   to South Korea.
6.25 The Korean War is a war in which the North Korean People's Army tanks was driven to the South Korea. During the war, my parents had been evacuated with the narrow escape from death from Pyongyang of North Korea  to Pusan city of South Korea .
I'll start with the story.
In order to do that, I have to start from the story of our grandparents in our family. ... Listen, this story is from the  my mother’s  story.
   It's a story created  by mosaicking with sculptural information. This story  is meant sewing patch work.
I will collect some pieces of information and synthesize a little bit of imagination to solve the story.
Because my grandmother and grandfather both died in Pyongyang.
So I have never seen them in my  life.
It just had a portrait of my father and father’s elder brother and grandmother in a living  room..
So I used to go out to meet my grandmother by spreading the imaginary wings.
My grandfather is man of the legend.
  My father grew up without knowing his face.
. My father lived a painful life and died..
Everyone at that time had to go through life of fetter like this ...
Originally, our home country is not Pyongyang at North Korea...
  It's a Soungchun county to the northeast of Pyongyang.
The grandfather of my family is also saying that he was a policeman.
Or it is said that he was a wholesaler who supplied food ingredients to restaurants.
I do not know whose story is right.
  Or maybe they're both wrong or right.
. But my grandfather was a terrible policeman who  the story can be said to be a pro-Japanese group.  
 It may be a shameful story of the house.
 But it does not make the history of the house beautify and do not distort too.
 . It is the child's responsibility to convey and describe without increase and decrease.
It is the spirit of human nature.
"These days, autobiographies and memoirs turn pro-Japanese  group into independent troops against Japan..
  It's fashionable to make a memoir by beautifying pro-Japanese  group  as a patriot.
It puts on makeup of the image and make pro-Japanese  group beautification to excellent  person often.
It says a lie and makes a mythological figure like a great man  in this time. "
"One of the stories I heard growing up was that my grandmother was very much a heroine.
The story of being strong-willed  is coming down.
It is said that my grandmother  was enthusiastic.
She also liked shamanism and I heard that she  kept her idols  in her  house.
In the old days, everyone wanted to get rid of the sundry evil spirits and get a wealth and prosperity
It is still like with the almighty dollar principle
of modern people .
It's the same with humans.
Also, one of the secret facts was that grandfather
 married my grandmother to my second wife.
The grandmother gave birth to five children from her ex-husband.
.. But I wonder how her could  got married again with my grandfather.
It may have been common sense for the customs and emotions  at that time,
Why  my grandfather with former wife and children want to marry  with my grandmother  who has  with former husband and children?
The big brother who came down  from Pyongyang  of North Korea told me that he was married my grandmother because he was delivering food  stuff to her who managed   a restaurant as a wholesaler.
Because they knew each other in terms of trade
they became friendly.
So my grandmother gave birth 7children totally.
But Could they ever marry with on their selves  freely?
At that time, everybody gave birth to about 10 children generally..
Of course, many of them died for not exceeding one year.
I think that it could not have even contraceptive, and of natural delivery usually .
This generation which it is hard to raise a baby like now is very different with old generation as much as the sky and the land are different .”
 " The emotions and circumstances in the 19th century when your grandmother lived, will be different with this time very much. "
"Everything changes.
Today is different and tomorrow is another life.
 It seems to me that it is the essence and core of life to find my inner self   in the flowing life.
But It have a legend which   the funny fact is that my grandmother's father was a wealthy and high and prominent office
It means that my grandmother was a rich daughter.
. It's a mystery why a rich daughter has twice  wedding as mistress.
My father was  grown up without a grandfather.
The story of growing up in a widow 's house also comes down in our family.
My grandfather, my father and my father’s elder brother have been living in Pyongyang poorly . "
 "In the old days, it was customary for everybody to have a second wife or mistress at that time."
 "Yes, it was customary to have mistress.
But the problem is that my grandmother's father has been treating my grandfather as a good for nothing.
The story is coming down. "
 "Why did not your grandmother's father like your grandfather ?"
"I do not know whether my grandfather  was poor or bad man or Japan policeman.
Perhaps my grandmother's father dislike that my grandmother was  married as my grandfather's mistress.
I thought my grandmother’s father  felt badly in his mood, or his honor has disappeared.
Or because the emotions of the time had been thought very badly  about this fact at his daughter  has  wedding twice. 
I do not even understand why the daughter of rich man was  married  poor grandfather.
But my grandmother loved my elder  father and my father terribly, and I heard that she lived But my grandmother loved my great father and father terribly, and I heard that she lived with his two sons until she died in Pyongyang. "
"Have not you ever seen Grandma?"
 "Yes, I have never seen my grandmother, but I could only see her through the portrait which grandmother and elder father and father  was drawn.”
“Didn’t you know the concept of my grandparents and relatives because I have no them ?’
"I grew up without knowing  about the concept of my relatives.
I knew that my family’ relationship is  thin after I got married .
. When I was a kid, of course it was a routine thing.
Especially my elder father went to elementary school in Pyongyang.
He  always got good grades when he went to school.
He had a lot of praise and affection from my grandmother.
I grew up listening to the story from my mother.
But unfortunately, my father did not go to school.
He  was so poor that his family can not support  to go to school because he is  second son in his family.
My mother said me this story sorrowfully.
 It's a huge inconceivable event for now.
But at the time, it was common living condition  in life .
Rather, it was a luxury going to school .
It was a time to think of going to school.
It was a tearful era of the 1920s ...
My mother used to say to me that my cousin studied well in studying because my cousin  resemble  like a elder father. "
"There may be a lot of secret stories  in Pyongyang. "
"I will also tell you about story of the secret history in my family.
My  heart is hurried and are ashamed.
Must I announce the story of my family to the world?
It is kind of embarrassing, and unfamiliar for me now.
I just talked to each other but I did not think that I would tell you life .
Now that I have reserved it, I have shaped it as a novel.
Someday I wanted to tell  to you about  my life journey.
So I pop out of the world, and tell to more people about my story
It would be nice to find a creative way if we could reduce the number of trial and error when we encountered in our life path filled with frustration and suffering .
This is the cause to tell you.”
"Thanks for telling me honestly “
“It is a human fate that everyone can carry their own burdens and walk the path of life.
It just want to be more intelligent and smart in life.
. To do that, it  have been playing around and reading a lot of books since it was a child .


It have to think a lot about things around and write a lot about yourself. "
"Yes, life, you are a wise man and a terminator.
 Let me know a lot of your wisdom, knowledge and meaning of life ... "
I am thrilled to be able to tell the history of my family and me .
It's a story that nobody cares about.
It's also a family history that it not proud of.
I was just trying to pass it but keep just in the heart deeply .
Unexpectedly I am fighting alone and I am glad that you are interested in my story.
It seems to meet the millionaire army.
The power springs up by itself.
It was probably 10 or 20 years ago.
I asked to my olderhe half brother about the history of our family  who was working in Dongdaemun market in Jongno at Seoul in Korea.
Because  I wondered about the history of our family
He was very embarrassed.
The father knew the case.
I remember long time  that my father was scolded me to investigate  my father's  bad career of family.
 It's already been decades ago, and now I'm stamped on my brain ...
Sad self-portrait ..
Of course, I thought that my father and his great father were the children of the afterlife, and that the half-brother was a child, so I did not have such a problem.
Of course, because my father and my elder father are the children of my grandfather’s second wife, and my elder half brother is a grandson my grandfather’s first wife.
. So I thought that it  had a problem.
I know it's too old to have family relations ... "
Historically, there was a system of status in the Joseon Dynasty (A.D 1392-1910).
My father and elder half-brother did not tell me because the emotions of Joseon Dynasty (A.D 1392-1910) had  the distinction against the child by a concubine.
Humans have a protective instinct that they do not want to talk about pain and suffering that they have felt from their childhood.
“I wonder how she looks and hope to meet her.
What kind of my grandmother? ...
She would have loved her grandchildren me very much ...
Why my grandmother loved  the first son just and dislike the second son? "
I have sketched grandma and grandfather about this outline.

Next time, I will sketch the story of my father, my grandfather, and my mother's Pyongyang marriage.

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